AN Day 5 - Distract her

OK... you definitely need to take Ana's mind off things.

You wait a minute and be quiet... anything you say will give her something to attack. She knows she is not being reasonable, and that just makes her feel worse, because she is a good person. She knows she is in the wrong.

"I saw Amy earlier. It's Sunday," you tell her. "Let's just relax."

"Fine."

You could have suggested that you fly to Mars and she would have said OK... she is so out of it. You take her hand and lead her to the Lodge's mini spa, where Amy should be... but there are two people ahead of you.

"Couple's massage, huh?" Amy is saying. Fareeha and Angela are there, holding hands. You and Ana stand there and watch Ana let them into the room, then shut the door behind them.

...you are afraid Ana will explode.

That is how you find yourself back upstairs in the room with her. You were going to give her a massage yourself. For real! You forgot all about horny stuff and you just wanted her to feel better... but she didn't want that.

Now Ana is naked and bent over with her hands on the bed. Your shorts and underwear are around your ankles, and you are buried inside her, desperately trying to give her what she is demanding from you. You hold her hips and thrust harder and faster, the pressure and intensity making you numb... you hardly feel your strokes. Your hips hurt and your toes... but you are trying. Your t-shirt is getting sweaty.

You get a sudden cramp and fall forward, planting your hand on her scarred back. You keep pumping your hips, the slapping of skin never stopping.

"Yes," she gasps, but your mind is... not here. You are thinking that it's sad that her perfect, brown skin has so many scars. But you are really just thinking about how Ana is not actually enjoying this. She almost made you do it, but she doesn't want sex... She is fit, but her body is supposed to be soft... right now it is rigid.

Your hips finally hurt too much to continue. You pull out and fall on the bed.

"Are you OK?" she asks worriedly.

"Yes," you pant. You just need a second... but she is already climbing on top of you. You feel her hands on your shoulders as she straddles and starts to ride you. You want to participate, but can't... Her breasts swing furiously and her hips are moving so sexily... but the look on her face is concentration, not pleasure.

She finally climaxes with a grimace. When she has shuddered through it, she climbs off you and lies down to get her breath. You are going to roll over and get closer to her to talk... but she suddenly sits up and goes into the bathroom. You hear the shower. Seriously?

You lie there for a minute, then **** your sore body to sit up and stand. You go into the bathroom to join her, but she is already getting out. You are sweaty and stink of sex, so you get in, but she grabs a towel and goes back out into the room.

You clean up quickly and get out, finding her dressed and putting things into her bag.

"You're leaving?" you ask, devastated.

"I have to." She is not angry anymore... just disappointed in herself. "I am interfering with my daughter's happiness and..." She glances at the bed. "I am interfering with yours. That was wrong of me."

"I like it," you say.

She zips up her bag and walks over to you.

"You can't really leave," you say. "Your daughter is here. You'll come back."

Ana gives you a look. "Yes. I will."

"Because you can't resist all this," you say, smiling at her and shimmying your body. "Come on. You had some fun."

Ana smiles. "Maybe I will come back. And have some fun. But you should find a girlfriend."

"I have a girlfriend," you say cheekily, stepping up close and grabbing her ass with both hands.

"You are a sweet girl." Ana removes your hands.

You can't talk her out of leaving. You understand, but... you will miss her. You know you could not like... start a serious relationship with her, but you wish you could have had more time together. Happier time, when she was not angry.

You are sad when she leaves the lodge without even saying goodbye to Fareeha, but Ana wants time to think and be calm. She is doing the right thing, and she will be back. She can't stay away from her daughter, and even if she does not approve of the show... she will want to cheer her on. You are willing to bet anything that Ana will return to camp on Friday for the big games.

And until then... you are the captain of a team. You see Viti, Lara, Aki, and Sun walking toward you. It's your team. You have to focus on them now.