A wife looking for joy

When you were just a young girl you dreamed of marriage. Of the joy that you would find in the loving arms of your husband. Flash forward twenty years and you find that married life is not at all what you thought it would be like. It's not that your married life is necessarily bad pre say it's just that after growing up looking forward to marriage something just seems to be missing.

It's as if there's no fire in your marriage no spark that lights your fire. You want a man that makes you feel alive that will rip open you're clothes and have his way with you. A man that will treat you less like his soft delicate bride and more like the whore you are deep inside. You want a man who not only will but wants to boss you around to control your every want and desire leaving you completely at his mercy as you surrender every part of you to someone else.