076. Rage against Natsumi.

For a moment I was just standing there in shock. Hazuka’s eyes blanked and she collapsed face down onto the dirt road. "Hazuka?" I whispered and then knew she was already dead. Then, whirling on Natsumi who just stood there confused I accused, "You killed her!"

"I..." was all she got out as she was just realizing that she had accidentally hurt Hazuka in her drunken rage to chase after Chizu. I however couldn’t hold back and simply struck out at the giantess.

"You!" I screamed as my first punch to her gut knocked some of the wind out of her, but still, she was so well-muscled she stood, though didn’t even try to block a single punch. "Fucking!" I screeched, hitting her over and over, the whole time she refused to react until she finally fell onto the ground. "Bitch!" I cried now jumping atop of her to punch her face which only hurt my hands on her iron jaw. The world was going fuzzy and I had a hard time seeing her so I just took out my frustrations on her yielding chest. She lay still on the ground and simply endured everything I had, but I wasn’t even really hurting her.

Then Yuki came out from somewhere and grabbed me, holding me tight and I only then realized I was crying. How could this have happened? This wasn’t the way things were supposed to go. Yuki pulled me away and off of the unmoving woman and away from everything. Others moved around, no we were moving… walking, but still, she held me. When my back started to ache from being pressed against her chest she had led me all the way back up the hill almost to the temple ruins. I couldn’t see Natsumi or Hazuka from the crowd of people there, so just stood there watching them.

"Kenji…" Yuki began, but I stopped her.

"Hazuka’s dead," I said dryly, not asking, but stating it as a fact.

She paused for a long moment then slowly said, "Yes."

I thought for a long time before growling, "I’m going to kill her."

"No you won’t," Yuki said with a stern yet motherly defiance. This infuriated me, as I’d been completely serious about my intentions. Right then I was ready to do whatever it took to not only break her, but destroy Natsumi. I hated her so much right then that I was savoring the taste of her hot blood in my mouth as I bit into the bitch’s still-beating heart after I’d ripped it out of her chest. "You are a good person Kenji…" she continued, but I wasn’t listening.

"Yes, I will!" I growled and grabbed Yuki’s neck to silence her. "And you won’t stop me!" She couldn’t speak, her hands clawed at my brutally tight fingers as her face paled before turning blue. I almost killed her right then until something inside me realized what was happening.

"No!" I gasped as I almost threw Yuki away from me. "What am I doing?" I asked staring at my shaking hands. Yuki choked out a cough and I saw she was alive, but now guilt flooded into me and I ran for home. How could I have done that? What was going on? I literally wanted to kill Yuki, and she had only tried to help me. Then I heard a muffled scream almost from under me.

I hadn’t realized how close I was to home just behind the Takahashi manor, but squatting down to a small grungy window on the backside of the manor that was the only external source of light for the basement. Inside was a bright torch burning to let me clearly see Setsuko garbed in a tight black leather outfit with a big wooden paddle, ferociously spanking Chizu who laid face down and strapped naked to a table by heavy leather straps. Instantly I again felt the rage building up inside of me again, but now I knew there was something wrong with me. I should just leave, but something about the muffled cries of Chizu stung my heart.

I wasn’t going to turn my back on her. I had to do something, but what?