Your toy girlfriend wants to be used

Dinner is a light affair.

Hannah is the one cooking this time, while Ashley hangs out with you in the living room. At one point the darkness returns for a moment, that annoying inner voice accusing you of separating Ashley from her girlfriend with your strange power. She clearly notices, because she gets up without a word and heads to the kitchen. You don't understand what she and Hannah are talking about quietly, but soon you hear her coming back...

Except it's Hannah walking in and not Ashley. She doesn't say a word, she just sits next to you and hugs you, gently wiping away your tears. Wow, you never noticed that you started crying again...

"Again, my love?" she asks sadly. you nod.

You want to apologize, but you don't. Not because you're a jerk, but because you know it's not necessary, the only reason you want to do it is this stupid depression. You just cling to your other girlfriend as if she is your anchor in the middle of the ocean. Hannah kisses you, she hugs you and caresses you sweetly, doing her best to comfort you.

"You never made me leave. You could have given me that order and I wouldn't have been able to turn you down. Yet you decided to try to love me."

"Try it? No, honey. I love you." You give her a shaky smile which she returns.

"And that's my point, baby. Besides, you know your feelings for me were a natural thing, right? I was your best friend's girlfriend, John. The only one who had what you could never have."

"rationally I know. but..."

"But it hurts, right? Especially now that you love me. However, you still have that feeling in you, although now without a goal. Because you can't hate someone who doesn't exist."

"Maybe that's a good approach, love." Ashley's sudden intervention startles you. You never heard her come in.

"What do you mean?" Hannah asks.

"That maybe that's a proper way to deal with those feelings. He can separate them from us, to a degree. The Hannah he hated and the Hannah he loves are different..."

"That might work if it didn't involve assuming that the best friend he's in love with doesn't exist either." Hannah interrupts Ashley. "It's also coming to terms with the fact that those people don't exist because he made them who we are now, which is really part of the problem. That's what's getting to him right now, the knowledge that this would be impossible in his old reality."

"Either I deal with the pain of having hated the one I love, or the pain of loving someone who will never love me." You say sadly.

The two girls are looking at you confused now, so you close your eyes and elaborate.

"Now that I know I can love you Hannah, thinking about the other reality means I could never have you. Neither you nor Ashley, really."

Your girls nod. The three of you just hug each other, they try to comfort you the best they can. Slowly the dark cloud recedes, for now at least.

You have dinner in a more relaxed atmosphere, talking lightly and sharing jokes. Love is also not absent. You constantly look sweetly at each other, sharing soft kisses and loving caresses from time to time. Your girls certainly make sure to show you that they love you, and despite the dark time, now you can enjoy it. When you finally finish, your girls give you a knowing smile, reminding you that they had been planning something for tonight.

"So, we've been thinking about the therapist's recommendation..." Ashley begins.

"He said the two of us could continue to have sex as long as you were involved in some way..." Hannah continues.

"So, since our girl here loves to be used, maybe…"

"Perhaps you can use me to please her, master..."

They both look at you now, waiting for your decision. You marvel once again at how much they love you and how much they are willing to do for you. Unfortunately, the emotional moment from earlier has left you drained. They must notice something in your expression, because their smiles falter.

"I'm really sorry, girls. I wish I could say yes, but…"

You see surprise in their eyes for a moment. Then understanding. The desire and lust for you fade into the background as their eyes fill with love and they both hug you.

"We'll have time. I guess today was hard, huh?" Hannah is back in girlfriend mode, looking at you tenderly.

"Hannah honey, I..."

"Shhh. Come here baby. It's okay, I promise. We can wait." Ashley nods, and the two girls kiss you together.

So... No sex that night. But they make sure you understand that they understand you and love you until you finally go to sleep. You wish things were different somehow...