Yes!

I blamed you for everything, always jokingly claiming that YOU were the one to pervert me.

But the truth was stranger than fiction indeed!

The truth was you merely fueled a part of me that had been awoken after discovering black women like Sarah Banks, Chanell Heart, Jasmine Webb, Layton Benton, Harley Dean, Noemie Bilas, the list goes on and on!

The most influence in my life were the infamous Diamond Jackson, Jada Fire, Ana Foxx, and Kira Noir!!

These women were amazing to me! Idols if you could call them that....their obvious love for their work was inspiring because that love was very literally and obviously much more than love simply for their work, it was for who they were working with!

White men!

All of those black women loved working with white men! And specifically in scenes that involved them submitting to a white male! Giving their bodies to them as a toy!

Watching these videos in highschool and into college gave me a sort of dread fascination with sexual submission to a white man. It seemed so wrong! So abusive, degrading, and outright humiliating! So unnatural to the point it was against nature! My family, friends, even society all claimed straight white men were the source for all my problems....

But when I searched through the internet I found black women literally squirting from submitting themselves to a white man!

And the more videos I watched the deeper I went, until I couldn't resist the shamefully embarrassing pull the videos and watching the black women dominated by white men had over me....

And I went and bought my first dildo.

It was a natural, realistic, thick 6" white cock dildo, complete with nice soft balls and the shaft even had some raised veins on it.

It was big. It was thick. It was embarrassingly shameful. It was taboo.

It changed my life...