Why?

She continued her grovelling on the ground, and I simply stared at her.

I looked up at the stars, and I marvelled at them. I had never spent any time doing that, but I guess right now was as good a time as any. They twinkled here and there, each far away from the other, separated by vast distances, but they looked so close to me. It felt like they could almost touch, but they couldn't. Was that how humans were?

I was getting deep into my thoughts, but I felt like no one could blame me. What was I supposed to do in this situation?

It seemed I? did something very terrible, but I couldn't even remember it. Was it even me?

I didn't remember. There was one person to blame, and they were in my head. It's not like I could pull him out to answer for his crimes. Maybe it was that situation like in movies where the second personality is doing things you've always wanted to do?

Urgh!!! This was making my head hurt.

I glanced at her, a poor girl just lying there. The result of a squabble between me and myself. I had to do something, but I've never been in a scenario like this.

Hmmm… If I couldn't come up with something to do. Then I would copy someone else until I found my own path. What would a Webnovel protagonist do in this situation?

Aha!!!

I knelt next to her, reached out my hand and started petting her head. “There, there, it's okay”

She flinched and stopped her mumblings. Slowly raising her head, I could feel a variety of emotions going through her right now. Worry, confusion, fear and hope all mixed in a messy emotional milkshake.

“W-what are you doing master?” She stuttered out.

“I'm sorry. I would like to say it's not my fault that happened to you, but that would be a lie. I caused it…”

She shook her head vigorously, denying it.” No!!, It's my fault for being bad. I'm a bad person! A bad girl”

“I didn't realise it before I met you master but now I know why everyone hates me , why no one cares”

“It's me. I'm the reason!” she was sobbing into her filthy clothes now making her look even more pitiful.

This was a classic case, I knew what to do next.

I reached for her, smelling the urine that wet her clothes but I persevered and hugged her, “Are you saying I'm wrong then?”

“Are you implying that your master is stupid?”

She immediately tensed up like my words were physically beating her. She shook her head, her short brown hair was rubbing against my face as he did this. The warmth radiating from her was quite nice as well. “N-no!, but I… am I,” She fumbled through her words grasping for any that could help her.

“Exactly!, If I'm always right then I can admit when I'm wrong” That didn't make any sense at all but it was more the feeling behind it that mattered.

She kept quiet, her arms were still hanging limply by her side, not daring to move.I was hugging her, comforting her but she was still not quite believing it. Time to use mopmom's secret attack.

I started pinching her ass. She yelped in pain but I held her close, tight against me.

“Owww master!”

“That's what you get, now you have to repeat after me or I'm going to pinch again okay?”

Silence.

I pinched.

“Ahhh okay okay yessss!”

“Yes you'll what?”

“Yes, I'll repeat after master”

“Alright, the words are “Master was wrong and I'm a good girl””

Silence, this time I want for her soft and vulnerable waist pinching hard.

“Ahhh!!!, I can't say that!” She buried her head on my shoulder and squealed. I didn't listen and simply continued, twisting and letting go of the pliable flesh.

She was using all her might to try to escape but it was futile. She was weaker, thinner and smaller. She eventually screamed out loudly.

“Fine!, Master was wrong!!!”

I let go and she slipped off my arms landing softly on the ground. She had a look on that cute face that I just couldn't describe. Let me try anyway..

Those light brown watery eyes were puffy from crying, nose red and a bit of mucus dripping out and her chapped lips were trembling. She looked like she went through a lot but her shoulders were way lighter.

Sooo cute…

Of course I couldn't enjoy this perfect moment. A voice at the edge of my perception started whispering once more in my ear.

“THIS IS PERFECT TIME TO MARK HER!”

“TAKE HER RIGHT NOW OR I SWEAR THAT I'LL DO IT MYSELF”

My body did agree with him, I was aroused and my dick strained through my pants. This was a moment I've been dreaming about for so long a chance to finally lose my virginity. I only needed to grab it!

She was so vulnerable right now, I knew that if I wanted it I could take it. So…

My hands moved closer to her, and I could feel my mouth watering. This was a very unusual place to do it but at this moment I didn't care. So what if people saw me, as long as I'm in there for even a second. I was thinking such thoughts but each one only made me warmer. Explicit images of her squirming under me flashed through my mind.

Fuck yes…

I sighed and dropped my hands, I wasn't going to do it. She reminded me too much of myself and it left a terrible taste on my mouth. My cock was rock hard and chaffing against my pants but I still couldn't do it.

I now sensed the mixture of feelings from her had changed. No more self resentment but Joy, exhaustion, fear, hope all of them I could feel radiating from her but not arousal.

I took the blanket from the loaded backpack and with my other arm I lifted her up and carried her.

I sat them both on the bench and went back for the bag, putting it close to her fir safety. That was it, I guess, I would leave her to rest. Still a virgin for me.

Putting my hands in my pocket and adjusting my meat, I was already thinking of which porn I would beat it to.

When I felt a tug on my hoodie.

She was holding on to me with puppy eyes on her face. She was begging for something.

I knew what she wanted but fuck, did I really have to?. And in this state I was in.

I looked again at her hand, the one bandaged up and I sighed.

I lifted up the blanket and spread it out over the both of us. Tucking us in here and there to make it fit. Sitting as we were on the bench there wasn't much space but that would soon be solved by her cuddling herself close to my body and basically rubbing her head on me like a pet would.

I thought about how much lice she could have and the piss smell lightly wafting through her. This was certainly a very different experience from what I would normally do but…

It was kinda nice cuddling with a girl who wasn't my mom.

I was woken up by gentle tapping on the side of my face. Opening my eyes I realized I was still sitting on the bench.

The girl I was sitting with was the one who had woken me up.

“Wha…?” I said confidently, definitely not sleepy at all. It's not like I had one of my best sleeps ever cuddling with a dirty street rat on a random bench. Nope

She giggled, “Wake up master, I would suggest we start dealing with the loose ends”

What? loose ends?

What was she talking about? and also what's this “WE” she was talking about.

“Umm..., what do you mean?”

She giggled once more, “Well, that's what I assume you were here to do. I would never betray master but now there are two people who might be linked to what happened”

Holy shit she was right. I remember in her story there were two other people!

I stood up from the bench, thoughts racing.

“Relax, I know where Old ma is. We have to go talk to her” she said while rubbing her hand on the side of my arm soothing me.

Okay fuck alright. She was surprisingly useful.

“THAT'S WHY WE SHOULD MARK HER!!!”

She stood up and quickly rolled the blanket and packing her other belongings properly

I yawned, “What time is it anyway?”

She took a glance at her watch, A pink and white kitty watch for kids. “Almost midnight we slept for about two hours”

She finished up and we started to walk with her leading the way but it was so slow with her up front, like she was too tired or something.

Hehe, time for some devious acts to entertain myself.

I picked her up easily, giving her a piggyback.

“Up we go!”

She yelped and laid her face on the crook of my shoulder, “Master…”

Thin as feather. The only thing causing me trouble was this stupid bag. I had to hold it in front of me with both hands while she was holding onto my torso. This was a terrible idea, everything was heavy but I had to be a man and continue carrying everything.

I chuckled and asked for directions, which she gave as we slowly made it back to their safehouse. Stopping in front of it, I was amazed.

It was actually pretty good, though obviously poorly maintained over the years. Two stories and a nice wooden brown exterior, some parts of the roof were drooping down but whatever. It was pretty nice for a homeless shelter.

I felt her twist and she left my back. She held her hand out with a smile on her face. I gave her bag back and we entered the house, both of our feet making the wooden floor boards creak.

She turned to me, “You can make yourself at home, explore and stuff. Although there's nothing to eat master, sorry”

I waved her off, that was obvious and looking at this shit hole I wouldn't have agreed to eat even if something was offered.

She sped up the stairs still lugging around that luggage and turned back to address me. “I'm going to talk to her okay?, Just a few minutes”

I nodded and walked around the house kicking around the trash heaped in corners seeing what I would find. There was nothing. Just disease and rats to be found here. I sighed and just decided to go sit at the couch, taking a look and patting the couch to make sure no syringes would poke me.

And….

Now I was alone. I might as well start a conversation with the thing sharing my head, this time making sure it's a whisper so no one thinks I'm crazy. “So why did you do it Ortho?”

Silence

”Which part exactly, the helping you out of a bad situation or the other fun stuff?”

“You know what I'm talking about”

“I don't understand what you mean by why did I do it”

I sighed qnd leaned forward rubbing my hair, “Did you have to do all of those things, do they give you power like charge you up or something?”

“Cause I get you trying to keep them quiet but I can't understand the other shit Ortho”

“You need not understand anything childe, It is simply in my nature it is who I am”

“Don't piss me off with those half hearted excuses, you're not human but you're obviously smart enough to talk to me”

“That means you can get what you did was

wrong!”

“FALSE BITCH!, trying to deny my urges would be akin to you refusing to drink water”

I feel his heat wrapping around me, Hairy arms have hugged me from behind while he starts to whisper in my ear. “You've felt it too the urge is great and overpowering”

“What you feel is a tiny sliver of the passion that wracks through my veins”

“I never even thought of resisting, why?!?”

“Why should I stop now?, your foolish human ideas and morals?”

“Maybe I would do it…”

“Be good, suppress my desires fOr ThE GReaTer GooD?”

Silence fell.

“But no!, I've seen in your memories these morals are useless in the face of existence. You humans use them to torture yourselves for all of your lives until you die with regrets”

He leaned even closer, I felt his mouth enclosing my ear. Before gently biting it.

“Well not me! and I'm going to take you along with this ride until we die!”

“You pi-,” I was interrupted by steps coming down the staircase. It was the girl and the woman known as Old ma. She was quite old with greying hair and her face. Well I couldn't quite see her face.

It was so swollen up with bruises that I could barely see her features but sharp grey eyes stood out, still fierce. The girl shuffled nervously behind her like a servant.

“She didn't quite believe me, she said she wanted to see you by herself master”