Try to move on with your life

Even though you wish you could go back and be with Arlo, however harsh he was to you and how unwilling you were in the beginning, you can't go back in time and be with him again. All you can do is move on with you life, raise your children, and try to live your life for both of you. Maybe, with enough time and patience, you can open yourself up to love once more.

Six months after Arlo's ****, you give birth to a set of fraternal twins. You name one Manuel Ray Coleman and the other Ryder Arlo Coleman. You cry when you hold them for the first time, remembering how your lover had cried when holding Thomas. You have to do your best to give all your boys all the love they needed and wanted. Your father helps, but he works to pay the bills while you clean the house and take care of your children. You help out when money gets tight with what Arlo left you, but you don't want to waste it. A majority of it you want to go towards a college find for the boys. Slowly, you move on from grief and accept your lot in life. You need to be strong.