To the doctors office

You lay on your side, quietly but nervously as you held your mothers' hand tight, the doctor was gently probing your backdoor to see if there was any damage after... Her. Lisa being here helped you more than you could say, she gently stroked your head, you still couldn't bring yourself to remove your wimple, not even after what happened and the words she said.

Closing your eyes tight you tried to forget the horrid things she said, seeing you screw up your face you heard Lisa say soothingly

"Shh, it's okay sweetie, mama's here she's not going anywhere"

Feeling the doctor remove her fingers you heard the snap as she pulled the glove off her hand.

"There's no major or permanent damage, which is surprising from what you told me," She directed her words at you, she spoke softly and gently, making sure you understood what she was saying and trying to make you feel safe in her office and presence "But there is major bruising and minor tearing. You'll have to take some antibiotics while you heal, and of course no anal sex."

"Thank you, doctor" Lisa said as she gave your hand a reassuring squeeze as she helped you sit up "Is there anything else we can do?"

"Just rest and no sex, simple is simple as" the doctor finished writing the prescription and tore the paper off the pad, passing it to Lisa "If you have a few minutes, we just need to go over some paperwork in my office, Doug can rest here he'll be completely safe."

Realising what was about to happen, your head snapped up with a scared look on your face, your hand automatically gripping your mothers' hand tighter.

"Shh, it's okay. I'll be right across the hall." She said pulling you into a hug, comforting you and calming you down "Sara and Crystal are on their way, they'll be here in a few minutes then we can all head home together, okay?"

Gulping slightly, you said nothing but shook your head, already nervous for being left alone. Lisa kissed your forehead and stroked your cheek, slowly sliding her hand out of your own as she followed the doctor across to the opposite room. You watched with trepidation your both doors closed and you were left alone again.

You tried to keep your breathing even, under control. You were in a doctor's office. A safe place, a place of healing. The doctor and nurses were nice to you, kind. Making sure you were comfortable, understood what they were saying and talking about. Treating you like a person and not something to see kneel before them and help them praise the Goddess.

Standing up off the table, you took a deep breath and hugged yourself. Looking around the room, trying to distract yourself with anything. Walking to the window you opened the blinds slightly to peak outside. Just people. Normal, ordinary people walking by without a care for you or the building. Living their lives for themselves and their loved ones.

Where you loved? Truly loved? You know your mom said she loved you and seemed sad with how you were now. But could she love you like the Goddess loved you? Did the Goddess love you? Could she?

You said your prayers, you did your best, you were trained hard and you learned hard. You made the Sisters happy and you made Mother Vivian happy, they said that through them the Goddess was happy, and thus you were happy to take any task, any trial and any punishment they deemed fit to put you through. You felt the love of the Goddess wash through you every time you pleased them.

Didn't you?

Was, was this a test by the Goddess? To prove your faith and love in her? Were you failing?

But then why was Lisa and Sarah so sad and hurt? Why was it that whenever you acted like a Son of the Goddess, they seemed even more hurt? Were you hurting them? But then that made you a bad Son as only those who went against the Goddess and her teachings hurt those around them. But when you... didn't act like you'd been taught, they were happier.

Stepping back from the window you could feel your heart hammering in your chest, you felt dizzy as your mind raced and for the countless time went round and round in circles.

You praise the Goddess you were a good Son. But your family were hurt you were a bad Son. You didn't praise the Goddess your family were happy you were a good Son. but you didn't give love to the Goddess you were a bad Son.

on and on in your head it went. reaching out you grabbed the bed to keep yourself standing, almost hyperventilating as you tried to gulp down air to breath.

It wasn't supposed to be like this. It was supposed to be simple.

Hearing the door to the room open, you hoped Lisa or your sisters were back so they could help, or at least a nurse or a doctor, they'd be able to help you catch your breath

"Hello, my son" you heard a familiar voice say, snapping around you felt your whole-body tense, your face pale, as you saw Mother Vivian standing in front of the door as it slowly closed again, a kind, gentle smile on her face as she watched you, her eyes sharp and expectant of you as she watched you closely.

Feeling your body begin to move on its on, you moved around the bed you knelt on the floor, taking the pose you'd had beaten into you, your body shaking as you looked at the floor not daring to look up at her.

"Good, my Son. You still remember the right and proper way to greet one of the Goddess's chosen and loved Daughter" Mother Vivian's voice sounded pleased with you, but there was something behind her tone that scared you even more "For those of heart and love shall give to those who are weak and lost, and together they shall feel the love of the mother to all"

Hearing her step closer to you you tried to shrink down more to try to be smaller and disappear from the room, the world and from Mother Vivian. As she stood in front of you, you felt her hand slide down and cup your face, you couldn't stop yourself, you let out a small moan at her gentle touch, your limp cock already drooling through your string thing and onto the floor

"Do you feel our Mothers love, my son?" Mother Vivian asked as she **** you to look up at her, her thumb sliding across your lips and you gently sucking on it as you looked up at her. At the woman who trained you, who showed you the way to that which was the beauty and love of the Goddess. At the beautiful, selfless woman who worked so hard to teach you, train you and make you the best you could be. "It's alright my son, those who leave the convent often have some troubles with the outside world. Presented with such temptations and those who are weak surrounding them. it is not your fault, my son"

You moaned around Mother Vivians thumb, your tongue moving across it as you'd been taught. Her words gave you comfort, made you safe, let you know that you were not alone and were protected.

"You have tried your best my son, and you did well. But you gave into the wickedness and the weakness, didn't you? You were tested and you failed, for that you must be punished, mustn't you, my son?" Mother Vivian smiled down at you, her hand sliding from your face and grabbing your throat, squeezing it tight as she lifted you to your feet and thew you back onto the bed. "Those of wickedness and of sin must be given no quarter, no empathy and no mercy. Through their punishment they repent, through repent they are cleansed, through cleansing they feel the love of their Sisters, and of their Mother, and know they too are chosen."

As she moved towards you, she moved her robes aside and pulled out her already throbbing hard cock, grabbing your throat again she pinned you to the bed and opened your legs, ripping aside your thong and positioning herself at your hole.

Hearing the door open both you and Mother Vivian looked to see who it was, you were surprised to see Sarah and... Crystal? Like Lisa and Sarah, she too had changed in the last year, she was more toned and her hair had been cut short, her clothes were torn in some places and she sported left blackeye which was past the worst of it and was currently healing well.

Your two sisters were stunned for a second as they saw and took in the scene before them. You too were stunned that you'd been interrupted moments before feeling Mother Vivians, and the Goddess's, love again. and Mother Vivan seemed surprised she'd been interrupted.

After the second past, Crystal shot towards Mother Vivan with a rage you'd only seen when one of the other boys, one of the other trainees chosen, had messed up a task or failed to provide a true quote word for word a passage from the book. Before anyone could say anything, her fist slammed into Mother Vivian's nose with a sickening crunch, sending the women flying backwards onto the floor

"Don't touch my brother you **** bitch!" Crystal roared at her, her heavy boot swinging into Mother Vivians stomach.

You blinked out of your stupor, looking around and slowly taking in what was happening. You were about to say something when you felt a pair of arms wrap around you

"It's okay Dougie, we're here now" Sarah said as he held you tight, slowly pulling you away from Mother Vivian and Crystal, who was a mesmerising righteous rage and fury, defending you from Mother Vivian as she kicked the woman again.

Suddenly you heard others burst into the room, Lisa and the doctor, nurse after nurse filling the room and trying to calm everything down, trying to drag Crystal away from Mother Vivan who wasn't moving on the floor. Lisa coming over to you and hugging you as well as they moved you to the opposite wall away from her.

You couldn't take your eyes off Crystal; it was taking three nurses to pull her away and keep her from hitting mother Vivian again. She was this angry and upset, over you? For you? She was defending you, protecting you from Mother Vivian.

When she saw the doctor and nurses working on Vivian to make sure she wasn't dead or had a concussion or any internal bleeding, Crystal calmed down enough for the nurses to let her go. Panting hard, Crystal turned to you and smiled. Her eyes were happy to see you, and that you were safe.

"You okay, Dougie?" She asked, her voice shaking a little as the adrenaline buzzed through her body, blood on her knuckled from where she'd broke Vivian's nose.

You couldn't stop staring at Crystal. Slowly you slipped out of Lisa's and Sarah's hug and gingerly took a few steps towards Crystal, who started to look slightly worried that you hadn't said anything.

You leapt forwards and hugged her, her own arms greeting you in return and holding you tight, her strong arms holding you tighter than Sarah or Lisa as she protected you. Protected you from Mother Vivan. From those who wanted to harm you. From the world.

Your legs gave out as you hugged her, slowly she lowered herself and you onto the floor

as you began crying hard into her chest.