Maybe, you will need to wait and see

For two months you lament the loss of your gender and Jessica helps you in the new world of being a girl. Your sudden disappearance is not taken well but you do not know what else to do. For a short time, you move in with Jessica and make plans to move out together soon. While that helps, you cannot help wonder if Jessica would still have been a girl without your sacrifice. It is disheartening not knowing but comforting seeing that she has kept her gender so far. You would be lying to yourself if you did not feel jealous though.

You are not alone with your feelings. While you struggle with jealousy, Jessica struggles with guilt. She got to keep her proper gender but you did not. On top of that you sacrificed your gender and got pregnant for her. There is nothing in her mind that can make up for that however; there is more to it.

Sure, Jessica is a girl but she does not know if it will last. Every day she goes to sleep not knowing if she will be male or female in the morning. She even confesses she wished she would just wake up a male just to have a resolution. You know that is partiality true because you feel the same but a part of you also hopes she makes it through to the end. You just do not know which you would prefer.