Can't get in trouble if you run away

Mary leans off you but keeps her legs squeezed closed. She waddles over to her clothes and bends to pick them up then stops only slightly bent. Her ass is pointing at you so you can see the reason she stopped. The filling you had given her is far more than she can contain and the slight compression sent a dollop running down her thigh.

You hurry over and pick her clothes off the ground and hand them to her. She nods at you, and putting her underwear between her thighs she spreads them letting out a little moan as she does. You pull on your own pants. You dirty a lot of underwear in an average day, that only just occurred to you.

When your pants are on you look at Mary as she pulls her top on. You try to not be too disappointed at the disappearing of boobs. "Don't tell my mum I did this." Mary said not looking at you.

You blink. "I was going to ask you the same thing." You are a little relieved she might not tattle, you don't know if you'll get in trouble but it seems possible.

Mary looks at you then at your missing hand. "I guess it doesn't make much of a difference." You don't look at your missing hand. Hearing her say that did kinda make you feel a bit better. "But you need to work on your forms. I won't waste my guard babysitting a husband who can't use a sword properly." She walked to the door and paused to turn and look at you. "I think you'd make a good husband."

"Um, thanks. But, you did say I've ruined other guys for you so only acceptable seems more accurate." You response earns a bit of a glare but as Mary turns away you see the hint of a smile.

"I'll let you know when the wounded are ready for you to help them." With that she leaves you alone.

You follow her out of the room then make your way out of the palace half expecting a member of her family or Lady Demise to appear. They don't and you make a clean get away, leaving both the palace and the hill, even making it all the way to the academy unaccosted.

The gate guard opens the way for you without comment and you head for the baths first thing. You make it all the way there, get into the the middle class baths and strip without any interruption.

The immediate suspicion you are currently feeling is not satisfied when you enter the baths and find it decently full yet remain uninvolved in anyone else's life. You go for a swim, get cleaned off, dried off and get dressed in your now clean clothes all on your own. You decided to check if there is food in the dinning hall since that last meal hadn't been all the filling, for you anyway.

There is food, seemingly the very last of lunch that hadn't yet been cleared up. You sit there eating, on your own, in the dinning room. You finish eating, on your own and decide to go to your room.

You walk up the stairs, pausing on each level to let whoever is going to interrupt have time to catch up but no one does. You reach your floor and stare at Vatarie's door waiting for her to notice you were outside and to open it to talk with you. You reach your door and look over your shoulder at the no-one seeking you out.

Oh they must already be inside. You think opening the door with a lung full of air to greet whoever had broken into, the empty room you were looking into. Walking inside and closing the door behind you, your suspicion seems, unfounded.

You open the door and no one is outside it.

Are you alone? Like alone alone? For the first time in ... a while.

You pull off your shirt slowly, expecting someone to arrive thus needing to put it back on, the probably take it off soon after.

You strip down to your underwear and sit on your bed. Huh, you were getting some time to yourself. You look around the room and drum your hand on your thigh in a rhythmless beat. Maybe you should go and find Delilah, Clare said she was babysitting but Delilah has been through a lot you should make sure they were ok.

You stand up and get redressed. They'll be somewhere around the academy you'll be able to find quickly enough. You reach for the door handle and bump your stump against the metal.

You stare at the stump and suddenly feel a lot. You don't know why, once Gabrielle wakes up and recovers, and you teach her how to condense her aura, you'll get your hand back. That's, what a week or two? Not an issue, you've lived two lives now. But what if she can't, or doesn't want to help you, or what if she only helps you after you help her get back to her world. What if you hand can't even be grown back? Clare said you'd cut it off from your non-selfconsciousness, that it didn't exist according to your magic, what if there's no coming back from that? What if you never have a right hand again?

You push out a heavy breath and try to calm down. You've got more important things to than self focused freaking out that doesn't help you or anyone else. Delilah and Eve are going through something worse, just get over your self-importance and go out there to find them.

You pressed your stump against the door handle again.

What the fuck is wrong with you, why can't you just remember the simple fact you cut your fucking hand of for some stupid fucking reason. You felt you entire body getting burned and frozen, you felt Eve rip open your spine and shatter it. And its the missing fucking hand that is your issue.

You feel light headed and try to breath but can't manage it. What the fuck is going on, why can't you breathe? You try to get some air but your lungs fight back, pushing the air out as soon as you get any in.

Are you having a panic attack? Why the fuck is this happening?

You sit on the ground, your back pressing against the wood. Just count down from ten you'll be fine.

You reach zero and still can't breath.

There is a knocking on the door. "Christopher, Christopher you ok?" Clare called out through it. "Christopher can you let me in?"

You couldn't, breathe or let her in because you couldn't shake the thought you'd use your missing right hand for it.

There was more knocking. "Christopher you in there?" Vatarie asked.

"Christopher do you want me to open the door?" Asune asked.

Oh great everyone's here worried about you because lost a soon to be recovered hand. They all have better things to do but here they are worrying about you.

There is a tapping on your window and you look at it to see Delilah with dark wings floating outside it. Your spine twitches at where Eve had torn it open and you can't even suck any air in all of a sudden.