Yes please.

see, i think that when you are just a whore, you can always make the excuse that it's not your fault, you just happen to be easy to manipulate. you're gullible, you have a really hard time saying no. especially to all these cute guys! especially after you've had a couple of drinks!

it's true, you actually do crave the attention. and sure you wish you were admired for your mind instead of your body, but that's never going to happen! get realistic! and though it's only a half-truth, you can still convince yourself you are merely a passive participant in all this. it may not be true, not really, but it helps to have a dodge, especially when the shame is so overwhelming that you can't stop crying.

but what if you want more? what if you want to make your life worse? what if you want to punish yourself, to really make yourself miserable by degrading yourself even further? how do you get there? will these guys still push you? are there other guys who would push you even lower? how do you get there from here, how do you arrange to be driven even further down?