I am Strong, I Reveal my Pain…

I shrug, “I don’t think it’s emotional pain. The therapy helped me understand my emotions were my enemy. They retarded how much of my brain that could be used, by me. The therapist, Mrs. Sayhoushi Vandal, gave me a couple hypnotic suggestions and then helped me learn how to meditate.

“I then chose to change the narrative. Instead of being a victim, the teacher showed me new possibilities. I began… exploring those possibilities with adults primarily. Girls my own age tend to be rather self-centered & self-focused… a lot like Inga, but I still see myself in Inga.

“The love & pursuit of pleasure is very addictive, nevertheless she is the type to get addicted to it & so we will need to teach her how moderate herself as she explores education & other hobbies.”

Mrs. Barbara Jonssen’s expression was one of faux wonder & amazement. “You are going to let them pursue education & a career?” It took me a few moments to realize she was being sarcastic.

“Sarcasm is a cancer in all relationships, by the way. The therapist taught me that.”

“What did you teach her?”

I chuckled, “How to juggle a career & multiple babies. She had the benefit of my focus being split, & me cuckolding her husband… unlike Chad, Ted didn’t run away & actually got turned on by it. That was up until the point that Sayhoushi started saying she was deeply in love with me… that caused problems.”

“So, you were the one to run away?” It was an honest question from Barbara, but it took me a moment to see that past the red. Fortunately, I avoid making emotional decisions, they never end well for me. So it has become second nature to me.

I looked away & sighed. I was going to have to open myself & take a new risk with these girls… no, these women completely. Something I only ever did with my therapist.

“No, but I guess so? I was a senior in high school, & so my therapy sessions were done. Well, they weren’t being paid for by the on in prison’s remaining wealth. I decided this university was the best choice to select an athletic scholarship because of a high percentage of graduates being selected in the drafts for professional sports.