Inside

Your inexperience and excitement along with the pleasure you are feeling right now overwhelmed you. Rather than reply to Amira’s words, both of you climax as one that night, your seeds spraying her womb. Then the two of you make love three more times that night before falling asleep from exhaustion. You wake up the next morning, feeling shame as you realized that you failed to maintain your chastity.

Sorrowfully you bath yourself repeatedly in shame before making your way to Father Michael.

A Jesuit and the same military chaplain who had served your father before for years, he along with Dietrich had been your father’s many advisors. Even before you set foot in the confessional booth, he speaks in the grandfatherly tone you had known since childhood when he had tutored you as a boy in the schools of astronomy, latin, arithmetic and science.

“I know you carry great pain inside of you James tell me what burdens you?” Father Michael says on the other side of the confessional booth cloaked in darkness.

“I have failed in keeping my chastity Father I have sinned greatly and right now I know not how to redeem myself,” you say, struggling to hold back tears.

“Ahh, the forbidden pleasures of the flesh, one of the seven deadly sins,” he says before pausing. He chuckles before speaking “It surprises me that you didn’t do this sooner, James, for many young lords are quick to fall prey to the devil’s temptations. However, I’ve known you since you are a baby and I know you regret this sin.” Father Michael says before pausing.

“I give you this penance: three full deckets of the rosary, fast for three days and most importantly if she becomes pregnant with child, care for her and the child for as long as you live, understand?”

“Yes, Father.” you reply while making the sign of the cross.