Other: My previous sexual experience

When I was younger, I was ignored by most and picked on by the rest. I was a tiny, 80 something pound Asian American without a curve to my name. The girls would push me and call me no-ass. The boys would make sounds that mimic Cantonese, despite me being born and raised in the US and have completely fluent English. I couldn’t wait until I could graduate and leave everything.

Life finally got easier when I began dating Chin Wang, the only other student in my school of Asian descent. This was largely in part due to the fact that my parents refused to allow me to associate with Non-Asian men.

Chin was very shy and respectful. Our first few months dating, we only held hands and gave each other a peck hello and goodbye. We would go to the movies together, get snacks after school, and occasionally study together at the library and hold hands. This was nice, but I am a changing women and I wanted more.

I began wearing more provocative outfits, showing more skin and hinting at a desire for affection. While I noticed the occasional glance and subsequent blush or smirk, Chin never made a move. August after my senior year of H.S. I decided I had enough. It's been well over a year of dating and the closest thing we have come to intimacy is a tight hug during a kiss where by breasts pressed against his chest through our shirts. I decided that my 18th birthday would change everything.

I picked up a sexy little pink and white plaid min-skirt, a white button down top, white stockings and pink heels. I am wearing a pink bra and panty set below. I put my hair in pigtails using pink scrunchies, applied pink lipstick and pink nails and touched up my face. I applied a little perfume and headed to out date. After diner and minigolf, I insisted we go back to his house to watch a movie in his room.

After 10 minutes of back and forth, Chin agreed, but told me I need to be super quiet because his father is prob still awake. As we approach his house, Chin kills the car lights and battery. We sneak into his apartment through his window and end up sitting on his bed.

Sitting next to Chin, alone in his room, I decide this is my chance. I look him straight in the eyes and ask, "Chin, do you think I'm sexy?"

Chin replies, "Of course sweetie, why would you ask my that, you are beautiful."

Smiling, I reply, "Because you never touch me here." I hike up my skirt and expose my pink thong. I begin to slowly unbutton my top, exposing my pink, see-through bra holding my young, firm breasts.

I take his left hand and place it between my legs. I feel his fingers begin to move against my panties, like a worm that just woke up. I look over at Chins pants and see a lighter-like item pressed between his left leg and his jeans. Knowing that Chin doesn't smoke, it conclude that must be his penis. I reach over and press my right hand on his jeans where the bulge is. Within a second, he begins shaking. I see a wet mark emerge in his jeans near his crotch. It's then I figured out that he came.

With a look of sheer embarrassment and anger, Chin looks at me and says, "I'm not ready to be touch there, and stop pressuring me to touch you. Get the fuck out of my room!"

Scared and embarrassed, I run out down the hall to the living room. I have no place to go as I told my mother I was sleeping over Jills house. I sit on his couch in the fetal position and try to quietly hold back tears while I figure out my next move.

A moment later I am startled by the touch of a hand on my shoulder. I turn my head stunned to see Chin's father, standing over me. He looks me straight in the eyes and says "It will be okay little darling. Don't cry lovely lady, my son isn't ready for a women like you."

Despite the strong scent of Rum, his words hit me hard. I immediately stop crying and stare at him like a puppy dog. What is he saying? Does he think I'm mature? Is Mr. Wang hitting on me? Why is he so kind?

He handed me a glass of Rum. I've never drank before, but decided this is time. Chin's father and I clinked glasses and I followed his lead in drinking it all at once. When finished, I began coughing. He chuckled, looked towards Chins door and said, we need to leave the living room.

He grabbed the bottle of rum, took my hand and guided me to his bedroom. He told me to have a seat while he poured another drink. I have never felt this mature in my entire life. He was looking at me like the women I became. I wasn't sure this was a wise move, but I did as told. After he poured us each another glass, he handing me my drink. I noticed he was staring at my breasts. I remembered my bra was see-through and became extremely subconscious. I attempted to cover my breasts with my hand but he brushed my hand away and said, "You are a beautiful women. Your breasts are sexier then I even imagined. I enjoy looking at them, don't cover."

Stunned, I sit there and let him continue. "I overheard my son. He's not ready for a women like you, but I understand you need to be touched. I will please you." Now that you are 18, it's okay.

Mr. Wang smiled as he looked me in the eyes. He told me I'm a beautiful women, and I'm old enough to be touched. The moment he began pinching my nipples, they both perked up. I dropped my head in shame. Mr. Chin, being the gentleman he was, lifted my chin and informed me that it's okay if I perk, and its natural feeling for a women.

I have never never felt so adult and alive before. I always imagined this moment would be with Chin, but as another adult told me, I'm ready and he's not. My brain feels fuzzy, but I'm an old adult now and I'm ready. I wouldn't mess this up.

Mr. Wang lays me down, looks me in the eyes and tells me, "this will feel nice. I'm going to give you a gift." I places his hands on my cotton panties where my pussy is, an pushes in a little. I have tried this myself several times, but never had a man do it. I bite my lip and I think he notices. He smiles, pushes my panties to the side and begins rubbing my clit with his middle finger as we kiss.

He tells me he loves me as he wiggles his clit faster and harder. This is everything I ever wanted. He's much older, but maybe I'm ready for a real man. I tell Mr. Wang, "Maybe I love you too". He kisses me more passionately, shoving his tongue down my mouth as his finger more aggressively massages my clit. I moan as he shoves his middle finger inside me and begins to penetrate.

It's better then I ever imagined. As he pushes his finger in and out of my, I begin to bob my body an moan. He smiles, and continues faster and harder. I love it and match his vibe. I close my eyes and embrace the moment. I think I love Mr. Wang and say that our loud once again. I open my eyes to see him smiling.

He places his penis against my clit and says, "You are a women now and I believe you are ready to be treated like one. I love you and wanted you for a while. I'm ready teach you how to become a real women. Are you ready to become a women?"

I look into his honest eyes and nod my head "yes".

Looking into my eyes, Mr. Chin squeezes both nipples while shoving all 4 inches of his raw cock into me. He begins pounding aggressively while sweating and grunting. It hurt but I took it. 30 seconds later, he shot his 2 tiny loads into me. I was expecting more, but I guess that is what sex is. He smiled, said that was the best sex he has ever had and immediately fell asleep.

The next morning he woke me up at 6:00am. I woke up feeling like Mr. Wang is my new love, but he didn't look at me the same way. Mr. Wang told me to put on my whore cloths and get in the car before chin wakes up. We didn't talk as he drove me home. I never spoke to either him or Chin since, but vowed to use men moving forward as opposed to getting used.