Of course!

“Angel, you are all I’ve been thinking about since I first got this crazy idea.” I reassure the trembling blonde. “How could you be anything less than perfect?”

We sit together in a delicate silence for a few minutes. I am used to quietness and feel no need to speak, but after a while Alison tries to explain. “Richard seems to get angry every time we..” she takes a deep breath before finishing the sentence weakly “..we do it.” I should have figured that this was at least in part Dick’s fault, “I think he wants me to, I don’t know, maybe wiggle more or something.” Alison’s face is turning a bright red but she stammers on in spite of her obvious discomfort. “He says s-sex with me is like f-fucking a l-lifeless sex-doll. I want to please him; I really do, but it’s hard because I know that it’s a mortal sin.

I take her carefully into my arms and give her a quick hug. This poor young woman has both major baggage from her upbringing and a lover who is either an asshole or just fucking stupid. “Sex isn’t a sin, Honey.” I’m treading on thin ice here, but if I do nothing else for this naïve young woman, I want to at least correct this, the biggest of all lies.” I sit back on the couch putting a little space between the two of us although I still hold her hands in mine. “If God didn’t want his creations having sex, why would it feel so good?”

“For the man, I guess,” Alison nods, and then repeats something she must have learned from her mother or what passes for sex-ed in her religious school. “Sex is a precious gift a woman gives her husband, a sacrifice to show him her love and obedience.” Judging by the amount of time Rocket man spends in her bed I’m not surprised she hasn’t learned how wrong she is. “No Honey,” I correct her firmly “If sex is done right, both partners feel pleasure, not just the man."

“I know that’s what people say, but I can’t ...” Alison’s eyes are starting to tear up again, and I begin to realize how tormented this sweet young woman really is.

“Can I try something?” Her expressive eyes widen as she senses a change in my approach. “I want to kiss you again, but I don’t want to catch you by surprise this time. OK?” She smiles shyly at me and nods her head.

This kiss was far better than our first. From when my mouth found her trembling lips to the moment when her lips parted in a sweet invitation to my tongue I could feel her body melting from the heat. I could have made-out with her all night long, but that wasn’t the point of this experiment.

“There.” I whisper softly as I finally pull my lips from hers eliciting a soft moan of protest when the kiss ends. “You felt pleasure in that didn’t you?” Alison’s eyes sparkled with a brightness that I hadn’t seen for almost a week now.

“Wow, Mr. Patterson,” she pauses long enough for her pink tongue to lick her lips experimentally, “that was amazing. My friends back in school used to joke about taking a road-trip to UT to find some older college guy to teach us how to kiss.” She touches her mouth with her fingers. “I guess they should have been thinking about men even older than that, Mr. P.” Maybe I should tell her to use my given name, but Elijah doesn’t exactly roll off the tongue, ever since high school most of my friends just called me Pat. To be honest, the ‘Mr. P,’ thing was pretty sexy in its own way, so I decided to stick to the point.

“You see, Angel?” I lower my voice into a conspiratorial whisper, “that made both of us feel good. Sex is just like that only so much better.” Alison sits in thoughtful silence again mulling over my words and slowly comes to a decision.

“You make it sound so good, Mr. P,” her soft voice wavers as she comes to a decision. “I think, maybe I want to try it with you right now?” The pitch of her voice rises at the end turning what should have been a declaration into a question.

Now she has caught me by surprise. If I hadn’t been reminiscing about that kiss I may have seen the desire in her face. But suddenly I am the one who is uncertain. Until this moment. sex with Alison had been a secret pipe dream, now it is a reality. Did I really want to do this? It seems way too late to back down, but was I ready for this now?