Everything disappears and Raven returns to the cell

Without warning everything around me disappeared: The white light, the table, the door, even my robe. I was back in Ssakcik’s cold, lifeless cell that I had foolishly assumed I had escaped.

“I had you all wrong Raven, and for that I am ashamed. Even though I studied you for so long I had assumed you would require **** like any other ****. Foolish me, I didn’t remember that you’ve spent your whole life torturing yourself from the inside. How could I possibly compete with that?

I can’t of course, but I’ve realized I also don’t need to. You see, I know now what I need to do! There is a longing inside of you and, though you won’t admit it, it’s eating away at you. You want what you’ve seen other people have all your life but you’ve never truly experienced yourself before my tiny little taste; You want to feel safe and warm. You want to feel like you belong and that you’re wanted. You want someone to make you feel like all those things you’re secretly self-conscious about are okay.

I know you wake up everyone morning, look in the mirror and feel fat and ugly.
I know you feel like every kind gesture people make to you is based off of pity. You want people to dislike you because that’s what you believe you deserve.
I know you don’t even masturbate because you don’t believe you deserve even that little happiness.
I can help you.

I’m offering all that to you. I can give you what you’ve never had… All you need to do in return is submit to me.”

I could feel Ssakcik’s gaze as I kneeled on the floor, my face turned downward and wet hair covering my eyes. What he was offering me was tempting, but his price was quite steep.

I don’t want to fight him and I don’t to give in to him but I have to choose one. I need to decide!