An Important Conversation

As Zack, Chloe, and Ashley disappeared into the cabin to start their room switching, Gavin couldn't stand the sinking in his stomach and heart any longer. The guilt of letting Heather jerk him off was growing larger with each minute, and he knew that he had to tell Victoria. She was his first girlfriend, and he already fucked up in a matter of days, and it shamed him. Gavin had a crush on Heather for so long, but it was supposed to be a pipe dream, but of course, she had to come to him and admit that she wanted to fuck him only after he is in a relationship. Still, Gavin couldn't blame what happened on anyone but himself, he was weak, and now he needed to face the consequences, no matter what he lost. Victoria deserved the truth, and him to be honest with her.

"Hey, um...can we go to our room to talk?" Gavin softly asked Victoria while Heather talked to Lisa and Madison about taking Zack and Chloe's old room,

Victoria gulped hard, she knew that something serious was about to happen, she could hear it in Gavin's voice, but it didn't scare her. What truly frightened the blonde was the fact that she needed to talk to Gavin as well, she was going to have to explain to her boyfriend that she played with herself while thinking of his best friend. Zack was all that was in Victoria's mind earlier, and he's still what's sticking around. Victoria wasn't normally like this, she was a virgin not too long ago, and she only had sex with Gavin because she trusted him because he was the safe, comforting guy she was looking for. Zack wasn't bad, but he wasn't Gavin, and yet all she could think of was letting the teen take her in any way he wanted.

Victoria wet her lips and let out a slow breath before nodding, "Yeah, I think that'd be good...I have something to say too,"

Gavin awkwardly turned and led the blonde girl back into the cabin; the pair stepped past Zack and Chloe's room where they spotted the trio inside packing up happily. Victoria bit her lower lip and stared at Zack thoughtfully as they passed by, though Ashley lifted her head just in time to notice to this. Though within the next second Victoria was gone from sight and Ashley was left to wonder if she really saw her friend checking Zack out, or just imagined it.

As the pair entered their room, Gavin let Victoria move past her before gently shutting the door behind him, "O-Okay...so I...I didn't...fuck..." Gavin sighed before wondering towards the edge of the bed and sitting down while holding his head in his hands, "I'm sorry, Vicky,"

"Sorry? I think I should be saying that to you," Victoria lowly replied as she moved to Gavin's side. The geeky teen raised his head and looked at the girl in confusion, "Baby...I didn't mean to...ugh, okay, please listen to me when I say that I care so much about you,"

"Vicky? J-Just say it...because I promise it's not gonna be as bad as what I did," Gavin said with a set of slightly wide and wet eyes,

"I...Okay, earlier when I went to talk to Ashley? I found her with Zack and Chloe...they were doing things and I...I watched. I watched it all Gavin and I, that's why I was like that when you found me in our tent," Victoria said with a slightly trembling lip, "Gavin, I'm sorry, but I couldn't help myself. I don't know why but I can't get Zack out of my head right now, but I didn't touch him, and he didn't touch me! I swear to you!"

"Did you want him to?" Gavin asked with a low voice,

"Gav..." Victoria sighed, unable to look him in the eye,

"Because Heather did," Gavin continued causing Victoria's eyes to snap up, "I ended up talking to her when you went to see Ashley, we moved back down to the water, and she stripped, then she pushed my shorts down and...I don't know really, it's fuzzy now, I started using her hand to masturbate, but I think it ended with her just jerking me off until I came." Gavin quickly stated while squeezing his eyes shut as tight as he could, "I let it happened, I didn't walk away, Vicky. I always had a crush on her, and I let that lust control me...I betrayed you...I let you down..."

"Gavin...why?" Victoria's voice cracked,

"She played into my worries...Heather told me she could help me gain experience for you so that we could do...that other thing, so we could be safe during sex. Then she just worked me, she knew I wanted her, and I was weak. I'm fucking scum, Vicky...I'm scum..." Gavin all but whimpered back,

"No you're not," Victoria shot back, her eyes wide in concern. Gavin looked back to Victoria, this time nothing but confusion remained on his face, though it only grew when Victoria threw her arms around him, "I'm no better Gavin, I watched your best friend have sex and pictured him doing it to me...if I was in your situation...I know I would have done the same thing. Gavin...we're the same, okay? I'm just as guilty,"

"No you're not, I did something, you just thought...imagined, I acted out," Gavin sniffed back, attempting to pull out of Victoria's embrace,

"No!" Victoria snapped back, "Gavin, please...I don't want this to...I can forgive you. I know temptation just like you know, and I know the want for...experience..." Victoria hardly admitted,

Gavin froze and let her words sink in for minutes, trying to understand what Victoria meant by this and then it clicked. If Victoria watched Zack have sex, then she more than likely saw him having anal sex with Ashley or Chloe and if she liked it and couldn't' stop thinking about Zack, that's because she could see doing it with him. Zack had that experience, and Victoria could see it, and that's what she wanted.

"You want Zack to fuck you...because he knows what he's doing, right?" Gavin finally asked, though Victoria clearly wasn't going to respond, "H-Heather told me that we need to...get experience, that it would be good for us,"

"M-Maybe...but I still care about you," Victoria whispered back,

"And I still care about you too," Gavin instantly replied, "But I think we both just admitted that we need something else right now...or at least need something more,"

"I know...you're right," Victoria whispered back, "I...Oh god, I want you, but I also want something else,"

"I know what you mean," Gavin agreed.

The pair went silent for minutes, Victoria let her head rest on Gavin's shoulder, and Gavin rested his on top, both just waiting for the other to speak, waiting for the hard truth to come out. "So are we...are we breaking up?" Victoria finally asked,

"I don't think so; I think we're just...taking a break?" Gavin asked back,

"Yeah," Victoria nodded sounding almost a bit hopeful, "I like that, taking a break. I don't want to break up with you Gavin, I really don't," Victoria continued, her eyes still welled up,

"Me either," Gavin said with a small, weak smile, "But are we going to feel that way after we've...done something with another person?"

"Not if we have rules," Victoria replied, "I...I don't want you finishing inside anyone, Gavin. If you do that and they get pregnant, then you have to be there for them, and I can't be with you. I just want things that important to stay between us,"

"Me too," Gavin instantly agreed, "I don't want to date anyone else, and I definitely don't want to get them pregnant,"

"Good," Victoria smiled, "Okay...so, um, what about you?"

"What do you mean?" Gavin mumbled back,

"Come on, you know what I mean," Victoria replied, "If we are going to make this work, you need to tell me what you don't want me to do. Whatever it is, just tell me, and I'll do it,"

"I just...no, it's okay, you just do what you need to," Gavin weakly stammered,

"Gavin...tell me," Victoria firmly stated,

Gavin let out a long exhale and wet his lips, "C-Can you just pick one guy? I don't care who it is if it's Zack than fine but just Zack you know?" Victoria let out a complete understanding nod,

"Just one guy, I can do that, I don't want to sleep with everyone Gavin, I promise...I can be with one," Victoria whispered back before pausing as she watched Gavin slightly fidget, "Gav, what is it? What do you really want me not to do?"

"Not Kurt...please not Kurt..." Gavin blurted back with pleading eyes, "I'm sorry for what I did, and I know you want to have an experienced guy but please...not that guy...he's horrible, and you-you don't need someone like him...he won't care,"

Victoria finally let out a relieved exhale, feeling some sense of real relief from the amount of care and concern in Gavin's voice, "I can do that," Victoria warmly replied before suddenly leaning in and pressing her lips against Gavin's, "You and one more person...just one, and not Kurt,"

"Wait, me?" Gavin replied with a few quick blinks,

"Yeah, I still want you, Gavin, and if we do get that experience we're looking for than...then it will only get better for us in bed," Victoria said with a bit of surprising confidence,

"Y-Yeah," Gavin nodded back before letting out a bursting exhale and an unsure smile, "D-Did we just...are we like in an open relationship now?"

"I-I think so," Victoria replied before letting out a nervous grin, "I never thought I'd be in one of those,"

"M-Me either..." Gavin agreed with a few quick blinks, "This is...I don't know what we do now,"

"Yeah...tell me about it..." Victoria nodded, though she wasn't exactly being truthful as she was already wondering how, if any way possible, could she get involved with Zack Bishop as well.