late night visit (a bit dangerous)

I lay in my bed, unable to sleep.

Didn't i just make a huge mistake?

I mean if we talk about this conversation should have gone....

“Uwaaa...i am sooo embarrassed, big sis!”

“There, there, don't worry, Ben. Just come here and cry in my chest!”

Then we would share a passionate embrace, while Ben would cry himself to sleep in my arms. Perfect sibling bonding time.

This was my chance to comfort Ben. I could have done a much better job at it. Instead I opted for that pathetic display.

I may have screwed my best chance to...

to what exactly?

What exactly do I want from him?

...

..

.

My body moved almost by itself as I slowly staggered towards Ben's room and silently opened his door.

I could hear him sleeping there, all alone

****.

Heath rushed towards my face as I loudly gulped. I knew this was wrong, but still.

And so I crawled inside his bed, making sure he wouldn't wake and proceeded to hug him. This was fine right? As long as I stop here, there is nothing wrong with just holding him.

I could feel his warmth as I pressed my body against his. I took a deep breath and inhaled his smell. He didn't shower today, so there was a peculiar odor about him, but that just exited me more. I slowly started to caress him...

“uhhh...”

Ben started moaning.

“N-no...no...don't...”

Sleeptalking? I never knew my brother did that.

“Evan...stop.”

My Body froze.

Evan?

Our older Brother?

“no...no....nghh....no...”

What?

I was starting to tremble. Why is Ben sleeptalking about our Brother? And why does he sound so scared?

Why? Why? Why?

“Why...Why...i'm...your.”

“BEN!”

Ben jolted awake, his eyes wide open with pure terror. When he saw me he kicked my away and retreated as much as he could.

I couldn't let him do that. I darted after and **** him into a hug. “Ben, its ok. Its me! Rina! Your big sister Rina! Everything is ok!”

Ben was trembling like crazy, he didn't appear to even recognize me. His breathing was labored and I could feel his heartbeat.

“You had a nightmare ok, just a nightmare....”

“S...sis?”

“Yes its me, nobody is going to hurt you, nobody...”

Ben stopped to struggle, but instead he started to softly sob. Seeing him like this was agony. I slowly started to brush his hair. “Relax...everything is alright.”

So many questions where racing trough my mind, but that could all wait.

“I'm sleeping with you tonight, ok?”

Ben did not answer, so I hugged him tighter.

Yes for now, we would just sleep.

And tomorrow, tomorrow I call Evan.

[Bad End 2 “O”]