after blackout

I remember going out that evening. I remember putting on nice make-up and choosing a nice dress. It wasn't long ago that I started going out to clubs, but I started to really enjoy my weekends. And I enjoyed conversating with strangers and making new social bonds. So it was no surprise that I was quite happy when a guy came up to me with a weird punchline but a pretty smile. God, I don't even remember his face. I don't remember too much of the evening at all, if anything. That guy had bought me a drink and even waited for me to quickly freshen up in the bathroom.

The next thing I remember was waking up cold and freezing. Naked, on my neighbors lawn. My head was dizzy and everything hurt. When I was finally able to sit up my neighbor came out of the door. Her name was Lena and we were good friends.

"Oh my God, Ava! What happened?", she sprinted over to me in her pyjamas. "I was just making coffee when I saw you. Is everything alright?", she tried to help me up but retreated her hand when she touched my skin. "Yuck... Why are you so sticky? And that smell...", she fanned herself fresh air as she helped me up to my feet. "Let's get you a shower."

I didn't say much to her as she shoved me into the shower cabin and turned on the water. It felt like my head was close to exploding, but I calmed down as I felt Leni's soft hands scrubbing of the last night from my bare skin. She even washed under my armpits and between my legs. "Shit, it's all matted up.", she said as she tried to pull her fingers through my pubes. I barely whimpered all though it hurt. "Sit here, I'll get something. She sat me down on the shower bench and hushed out of my perception, which was to be fair, far from sensing anything outside the hot steam of the water. I closed my eyes and dosed off again. I was awakened by having my legs spread apart and feeling cold metal on my thighs. "Calm, calm. Don't move, I don't want to hurt you.", Leni said as she began pulling the shaver over my mounds, removing any hair.

'I don't want to hurt you...' 'Calm, relax'

'I don't want to hurt you...', flashes of memory snapped back into my mind and I almost jumped.

"Calm", Leni said putting the razor down. She drove her fingers all cross my inner thighs and my soft lips, feeling for any spots she'd missed. Then she dried me off and brought me into her bedroom.

'Calm' 'Relax' 'I don't want to hurt you' 'Just lean back and enjoy'

I fell asleep instantly. The flashed of memory hunting me through my nightmares. I saw multiple blurry figures standing over me and felt the sensation of something warm landing on my face. I tried to stand up but the floor was to slippery. No, not the floor. I was too slippery to get a good stance. I remember a flashing red light before darkness ensured.