You were programmed to watch porn...

You take a sip of your vodka, enjoying the familiar reassuring fire of it as it slides down your throat. You look at the screen of your laptop and your published chapter on CHYOA. Indisputably published and available for everyone and anyone to read. With your name part of it. Leah. It’s right there on the screen.

Your name is up on the internet. On a porn site. (Admittedly a textual porn site.) There is still a part of you that thinks this is a terrible idea, a little worm of fear and doubt about what you might have done to yourself. But the greater part of you is still riding the thrill. The feeling of risk. The feeling of doing something you know you shouldn’t. Something forbidden and a little dirty. It’s a potent cocktail of emotions.

Your attention is caught by a flicker on the screen below your name. It’s just one of the adverts on CHYOA changing. Whatever it was before, now it’s for some game. It’s an animation of a surprised looking anime babe getting her pussy slowly pounded forever by a strap-on worn on a pair of feminine hips. {{Lesbian porn is good. Lesbian porn is healthy. You are horny. You want to watch lesbian porn. Watching women fuck women makes you feel good.}} Wasn’t the ad different before, a cock instead of a strap-on? You shrug mentally, it’s not like you pay much attention to the ads, and your eyes drift back to your name on the screen.

You take another sip of your vodka, a bigger one. You shift a little in your seat as you realize you’re horny. Moving relieves the immediate tension, but now you’ve noticed you know you really are horny. The kind of horny that needs attention or distraction. The kind of horny that sends you off to read or watch porn or just fantasize with a hand in your pants.

The CHYOA ad changes again. Which is annoying, bad enough they’re animated, but at least they didn’t use to change. This time some kind of princess is progressively losing her already scanty clothes as she’s presented with gifts. {{Masturbation is good. Masturbation is healthy. You are horny. You love to masturbate to women fucking women. You want to masturbate while watching women fuck women.}} It’s a different ad for the same product. Some sort of erotic roleplaying game called Cunts of Conquest about fantasy elf and princess sex. You wouldn’t mind seeing some of that actually...

A thought crosses your mind. When you search for a toaster or some shit to buy online, then for the next week all the ads are for toasters. Even if you’ve already bought a toaster. They (the advertisers?) know you were interested in toasters and then they stalk you relentlessly. Targeted ads! That’s what they’re called. But if toaster sellers can do it, then it must be trivial for the Secret Masters of the World. They could use internet ads to program anyone, or just target one specific person.

There’s a brief moment of tension, like the beginning of a migraine, and then it’s gone as suddenly as it appeared. What were you just thinking? It can’t have been important. You squint at the last of the vodka in your glass. It looks all right, it tasted all right. But it’s not what you need right now. Right now you need porn.