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"Er, yeah I'm fine thanks, Rachel." You reply awkwardly, unable to meet her gaze.

Rachel looks at you oddly with a questioning look on her face, before shrugging her shoulders and smiling at you. "Ok then. I'm going to my room, and do some studying. Katie turned up out of the blue, and er, distracted me." Rachel says, while blushing slightly.

You give her a quick nod of the head, before she turns around and walks towards the stairs. Unable to keep the truth to yourself anymore you blurt out. "Rachel, I have something to confess to you."

At the foot of the stairs Rachel turns around with an amused expression on her beautiful face. "Are you finally admitting to causing that blockade in the downstairs toilet?" She asks in a teasing tone.

Despite yourself you feel a smile spread itself across your face. "N-no, not that." You say defensively. "I lied about only just getting home earlier. The gym was closed.I've been home for about half an hour." You confess.

Rachel's eyes avert themselves from your gaze. "So?" She asks. Her tone is coy, but you detect the worry in her facial expressions and body language.

"I heard some noises coming from your room earlier, Rachel." You say, awkwardly. You can see the sadness in her eyes, and the tension in her body as you speak.

"And?" She asks sadly. It appears that she already knows the answer, but needs you to confirm her fears.

"I-I sneaked a peak, Rachel. I saw everything." You confess, your tone is full of shame of regret. "Rachel, I'm so sorry. I....." You begin before Rachel turns away, and begins to climb the stairs.

You reach out and gently take hold of her left wrist, preventing her from running away from you. You gently turn her around and hug her. Her body initially rigidly stiff, but after a few moments she begins to melt in your arms, and accepts your comforting embrace. You can hear her gently sobbing into your chest.

"Hey. It's ok. It's ok, Rachel." You say in a soothing tone.

It appears that your words had the opposite affect on Rachel, and she quickly shrugs herself out of the tender embrace the pair of you had shared.

I'm so sorry...." You begin

"What are you talking about?" She interrupts "I'm the freak here". She looks like she is on the verge of tears.

"Hey its ok. It's ok". You say softly to reassure her. "You aren't a freak. It was a bit of a suprise to me though".

She turns aways from you. "Of course I'm a freak !" Rachel says, her tone rising. "I have something girl's don't have." Indicating to her groin. "You don't understand." She continues after a few moments of silence. Her voice is a lot calmer, but is filled with sadness. "Since I have moved in the last few weeks have been the best, and worse of my life. Having learned from bitter experience what happens when people-especially men-discover my 'secret' I have been fighting my feelings for you. Despite myself, I quickly grew feelings for you. You don't know what it's like to be unable to be with someone you care for deeply." Rachel states bitterly.

"Yes, I do, Rachel." You declare emphatically. Rachel glances up and meets your gaze. "Despite all the banter and casual flirting I thought you weren't into guys at all-especially me. I want to be with you."

Rachel looks up at you, a small sad smile on her face. "John,we can't." She says sadly. "I've lied to you, I haven't been honest with you. I'm a freak. I have a... I have a..." She stammers.

"A cock." You finish for her, slowly moving closer to her. Suddenly the fog of confusion and lust dissipates in your brain, and you arrive at one overriding thought. "I don't care, Rachel. I love you." You state, taking the plunge.

", I....." Is all Rachel is able to say before you press your lips against hers and kiss her.

For a long moment Rachel doesn't respond at all to the kiss, so much is her shock. Her eyes are wide in surprise. Surprising you, she then returns the kiss passionately. Just as the pair of you were getting into it Rachel suddenly ends the kiss, and turns away from you.

"We can't, we shouldn't have done that." Rachel states breathlessly, unable to meet your gaze.

You glance down to see her breasts rise and fall spectacularly in her top as she catches her breath. "Forgive me, but I can't help but disagree with you, Rachel. I've wanted to do that ever since we have met." You say to her softly.

"You want to be with me?" She asks shakily, as if dreading the answer. "Even with 'you know what'?".

"Rachel". You respond softly "You have been all I have been thinking about ever since I saw you on the front porch. Your secret was a huge shock to me I admit, but I have came to the conclusion that I dont care about your secret. I have realised that I don't want to lose the woman who I care for so deeply over something this trivial. Honey." You pause for emphasis and lift up her chin gently so she can look deeply into your eyes. "I love you."