What the fuck?

Tired (I highly recommend listening to this song while reading this)

Welcome to the author self-rant corner, you either see an update notification to see this or find this chapter through the story map. If not you didn't start the game and you can see this or see this through my profile.

As you can tell, I'm not active anymore, I've been busy juggling college and my job. Hell, I'm kind of slacking off on my college career right now too. I don't know where I'm heading in life, to be honest.

I'm not scared or worried I'm just tired. I'm like drifting through the ocean going through the same motion every waking day. I don't know where my body taking me but I guess I'm just here for the ride. Or if not I'm just having my midlife crisis that everyone has once in a while. Fucking everything I once enjoy doing in my spare time, I can't find enjoyment in it anymore. I feel like I don't have time to do things I used to enjoy. Same with writing, I used to like to make stories and worlds. But then what the point? I'm really not making any money doing this. I should just be focused on my job instead.

I used to write, draw, do photography, fucking playing my guitar. But now I'm just like, fuck dude I really don't have time anymore. My plates are full and I'm stuck in this rut. I work a 5-9 Job putting up around 35 hours every week, I know that isn't a lot compared to other people. But you can at least agree with me that you feel like a zombie doing the same shit every day. When I get home I have to worry about bills and whether or not I can pay off my college class. Plus on top of that, I usually chug two bangs just trying to keep my body alive when I work. But when I get home I fucking die on my bed. On the days when I'm free, I usually don't do anything productive, I just watch youtube or lay on my bed feeling like I don't have the energy to do anything.

My friends don't know any of this, I'm usually the upbeat funny guy who is nice and kind to everyone who acts stupid and dumb. But you know what they all say, sometimes the happiest people you know, are the saddest people you will ever meet. Yeah, I have a car, a job, a place to live, and going to college but fuck dude it's a lot of responsibility that high school doesn't teach shit to do once your out. Anyways, I don't want to leave this off on a sour note. I haven't drawn in years, to be honest, so I decided to at least pick up back on one of my hobbies. So enjoy this drawing I guess.

Also thank you for sticking around for this story and reading all this shit. I am kind of happy knowing that at least I wrote something, and someone out there actually read it. That I'm not alone, and someone saw my story. So once again thank you weird stranger on the internet who is reading this on a porn website.