Well enough

I made my way up the stairs and saw a door on the right and on the left. I was tempted to look in her room to see if there was some sort of cot that I may be sleeping on but I had to follow orders, especially when she was showing a modicum of mercy by letting me take a shower. As I felt my juices slide further down my thighs I was reminded there was another purpose for my shower. I wondered if the whole reason for the shower was to clean my crotch so she wouldn’t have to worry about me contaminating the food with my secretions.

I walked into the guest bathroom and turned on the light. I looked in the mirror and there I was. I sobbed as I looked at my naked body and knowing that my friends were all going to see it and me tonight. No doubt Kelly would give me humiliating and degrading tasks in front of them to show her control over me. I know this is what I chose but I chose it without knowing I was going to be naked for the rest of my life. It’s still my fault for giving her that option and I should only be mad at myself for having been so ****. I am still that ****, I just can’t turn these feelings off.

I looked at my pink collar there to remind anyone they hadn’t just accidentally caught me naked but that I was this way on purpose. It told everyone I was a possession not a person. My pert breasts with nipples that seemed to be hard all the time now that I’m exposed but maybe given time my body will adjust. I had always considered myself skinny but with just a little bit of a tummy it seemed so prominent when I had no shirt or anything else to cover it. I looked further down to my sparse brown landing strip which didn’t seem like nearly enough now that I had no other way to hide. Maybe I should grow a full bush? Then I remembered that she had control over my hair so she might not let me, and could make me go fully bald down there as a punishment. Then there was my pussy and my aroused parted lips glistening letting everyone know that at some level I was getting off on this. Also given the fact I now will be barefoot I noticed the dirt on my small feet and realized that would be normal if she had me outside for any period of time.

I wiped the tears from my face as I looked at what I had done to myself. I told myself it would all be worth it if I can make her love me. Even if she kept me like this if she loved me I would dance naked in the streets from sunrise to sunset to make her happy.

I wondered if this pre-shower meltdown counted against my five minutes. I had to assume that it did so I guessed I had all of three minutes left now. I pushed aside the curtain and turned the knob to hot. My collar shifted on my neck as I stepped in and I wondered if I should or could take it off. If it didn’t come out wet she’d know I’d taken it off but if she didn’t have a problem with that it wouldn’t matter. I decided to keep it on and hope that she’d tell me it was okay to take it off when I bathed.

I felt the water pour down over my body and it felt nice. Given my short amount of time I decided to focus on the one area my master took issue with. I took some shower gel and built a lather in my hands before placing it over my crotch and working down to my thighs. I rubbed up and down my thighs until I was sure they were clean and then moved back to my pussy. I took a hurried breath as I moved a finger over my lips and I felt the strongest temptation to play with myself. As I rubbed gently the usual thoughts weren’t coming of me imagining Kelly naked but instead it was the most cruel things she had said and done today. I moaned and then stopped. I tried to tell myself I don’t get off on being degraded but my body and subconscious were trying to tell me differently. I covered my crotch in more soap and then rinsed myself off as my juices were cleaned off.

My collar had soaked through and as I turned the water off it quickly became cold. I stepped out and grabbed a towel drying myself but I would have to wait for the collar’s fabric to dry on its own. I dried myself all over and then looked back in the mirror. Still naked and collared as if anything could change.

“It’s going to be okay.” I told myself.

I opened the door to go back downstairs and prepare dinner for my master and people who were hopefully still my friends despite my hesitation to have them see me like this.