Well, maybe my family?

When I was just a boy, I would get so excited when I would sneak into my parents bedroom and fish out my dads porn magazines under his bed, I would sneak back into my room and lock the door, pull down my shorts and look at all the beautiful women and girls sucking beautiful cocks ... I would get so excited so fast that I would cum almost instantly ...

Now I have been cross dressing for about five years now, I had to be careful at home so that my father never caught me, my mother on the other hand caught me almost as soon as I started and to my surprise she encouraged me to keep dressing and wanking to all the cocks, my mother even bought me a playgirl magazine and my first dildo.

I have always been a short skinny boy, and have always had longer hair, most of the time pulled back in a pony tail, with my mothers okay, I started practicing sucking the dildo, she even showed me how not to gag on it, I thought she would help find my first cock to suck but she never did .

Now on my birthday I am in search of my first blowjob, and the thought of actually putting a live warm cock in my mouth was overwhelming to me. Perhaps now that I'm 18, maybe mom will actually be willing to help me out. Or maybe I should look elsewhere.