Tilly's not right

"It's hard to explain but I don't quite feel like myself or I should say I didn't feel like myself but I feel much better now, now I'm not around Jim.

"I met him before and I got quite cross at him. I didn't mean to but I felt like I wanted to defend you so I almost went determined not to like him. As we sat together Sarah could tell I was being hostile and she tried to calm me down and it worked and I eventually stopped being hostile to him and then as time went on I found myself looking at him differently. He really is very good looking and he can be so funny and interesting and... sorry I got swept into something there. He IS good looking and I DO find him funny and interesting but I don't know why. He wasn't when I first met him. I mean, yea he is superficially attractive but I've never found his type that appealing, not least because I thought I was just lesbian until only recently. When I'm away from him I can't think of one thing he has said that I found funny or interesting but when I think about him I remember that feeling of thinking he was just great and by the time I left that evening I was absolutely enamoured of him. He was just the best. But the longer I was away from him the more that feeling faded.

"When Sarah called to invite me over for the weekend I was not so convinced I wanted to do anything with him. I'd decided I wanted you to be the first boy I slept with unless I fell for someone I met and it happened naturally. The idea of giving myself to Jim was, not hateful but not my preferred option. Then Sarah started talking about him and those feelings started to creep back in. He was great, hot, funny, interesting, the lot, maybe he could be a great choice. Then she started telling me how good he is sexually and it was like a thirst came over me. I really needed to experience that so I agreed.

"A couple of days passed and the barest hints of doubts began to creep in and when I saw you as I was about to go I was suddenly really conflicted but I'd said I would and I know that you are the way you are and there was a chance you might be really happy if I did so I left.

"I arrived and Sarah greeted me at the door and held my hand as we walked in. As soon as I saw him again I knew I wanted him. I wanted him so badly I just walked up to him and kissed him. Even the moment I first saw Sarah couldn't compare to how much I wanted that man and I gave myself to him completely. I would have done anything he requested of me but he didn't need to ask I just did anything I could think of to please him. It was good. It was electric, the feeling of his cock in me, his strong arms and hands touching me, pulling me onto that amazing cock of his. I came so much on that amazing cock. I worshipped it...

"It didn't feel right. It didn't feel natural. It was like I was high or that I was someone else. I almost found myself outside my body sometimes asking 'Why are you doing that? Why are you behaving that way?' but other times I was right in the moment feeling everything so strongly and of course Sarah had tweaked us all so we could just keep going and going.

"When it was time to go I was genuinely sad to be leaving but a hug from Sarah calmed me down and I sat off to come back here. As soon as I was out of there it was then I realised how wrong things were. I thought about you and your amazing cooking and the fun we have together and I couldn't rationalise why I would give myself to someone like him and that was when I decided I wanted to have sex with you even with your current size. It didn't matter. Sex with you was what I wanted or at least sex with a relationship not sex with him. Its why I feel happy now I've got your cum in me and not his. It's better cum even if it doesn't come with the amazing sex." She said that last part forcefully like she was doing it to spite him.

You know what the worst part is?" she went on rhetorically "If they asked me to go back I would drop everything and go. I know I would but I don't know why." she went quiet and nuzzled Tom's chest.

Tom didn't know what to say. Was it just her young mind confused by all the new feelings that her newly discovered bisexuality were bringing or was it something else? He felt blessed to be right there, naked with such a gorgeous young creature. For the first time in a while he longed to have his cock back and to make love to this girl like she deserved but equally what they had done didn't feel like cheating although he realised it was but to do more behind Sarah's back wouldn't sit right with him. Would she have given her blessing to him having real sex with Tilly? Maybe one upon a time in this crazy adventure, but more recently he couldn't be so sure. He decided to try and talk this out with Sarah when he got chance and if Tilly wanted this sorry excuse for sex again he could give her at least that much.

He softly shook Tilly's arm "Hey, I'm getting ready to eat. What do you say I whip us something up?"

Tilly lifted her head from his chest and said "That sounds amazing. They pretty much only eat take out."