Think about what just happened

It's going to be awkward the next time I see my neighbor. I know that he liked it, and there's a big part of me that liked it too. Baring my naked teen body to him was exhilarating. Knowing the effect that I had on him turns me on like nothing I've felt before. I want him to watch me again. I think about what it would be like to go over there and get manhandled by him.

I gently rub my pussy over my pants as I think about it. How naughty would it be to sneak over there and let him have me in every which way. He could fuck me in every room of his house. I bite my lip thinking about him throwing me over his desk and taking me.

But there is doubt. He's a lot older than I am, and I don't know if I'd ever really have the guts to make it a reality. I also don't know how we long we could keep it a secret, or if he'd even want to. However, its fun to think about. I think about Justin too. How can I get him to like me if I can't talk to him outside of school?

Am I a slut for thinking about two guys? Maybe I am. Maybe I've just been so deprived that I'm ready to go off the deep end. Even if it means doing something crazy. Even if it means taking a big risk. I need to know what it's like.

As always, my dad is in the back of my mind. If he ever catches me with a guy, I'm dead for sure.

It takes me a while to drift off to sleep.