She can speak English again, with a catch

Day 78

Dear diary,

Since last week, I am no longer allowed to say Miss Jean; I now say only "ma'am", or "Madame Sallemen", intentionally saying it with a thick accent, which I think she likes. Morning now starts with me in my maid uniform with a tray of coffee and breads standing at the foot of Senora's bed, "Bonjour Madame Sallemen, J'ai du café et du pain pour vous, aujourd'hui." She beckons me over to the bedside and while eating, will usually smile at me and grab my ass or breast. Nothing more though, like she is teasing me only.

She has been cross with me because I am having trouble with the newest heels that I have to wear since they are 5 inches and have platforms. She says that I will get used to them.

A bit of good news though. I got my English privileges back today! I have only a few things I am allowed to say, but something is better than nothing. I can only speak in the present tense, and only about 50 words, and they are not the most useful. I find myself making double entendres all the time without meaning too. I'm not sure if that's what It's like having to study a new language all over again to figure out how to communicate. French is actually easier now to express myself. As a result, when I want to say something in English, it takes me time to think of how I can say something, and if I slip up, I get a very stern spanking. Conversations for me with our guests go something like this now:

Man, "Excuse me, do you have a fan or anything for my room?"

Me, Coline, "Oui, I have.... ah.... I blow for you, ah, I come, ah, come for you for thing, yes?"

Man, "Excuse me? Sorry, I don't think you understand. Um, can you get Jean? Madame Sallemen?"

Coline "Ok I for you, she come"

It's usually embarrassing, and always humiliating, but I somehow end up completely wet each time. Madame Sallemen is also having me take this pill now once a day. She mentioned something about upping my dose from before, but I don't remember ever taking it.

Since I started taking it, I've noticed I sometimes get a fog in my head. Memories and concepts get, sticky. I have problems with remembering things now, and sometimes I stand in once place for a few minutes trying to remember what I'm supposed to be doing. It's very calming though, I don't really worry too much now.