Resist

You take a moment to try and think about how you got here. You remember wanting Carrie to be your mother and yet you wonder was this really your idea. You know Carrie has been brainwashing you as scared as you our to admit it you know that's true. What you don't know is when it started or how long she's been doing it? As far as you know this whole thing could have been Carrie's idea from the start all you do know is you can't trust her or your own thoughts.

"I have to get out of here" you say trying get out of the house. "Where are you going sweetie? Carrie says trying to block your exit. "I know you're scared but mommy only wanted to help you" Carrie says so sweetly and gently all you want to do is call for her. "Mom" you say without thinking it's almost natural now and yet as you grab your head you know it's wrong. You try to think about your life before your real mom your real family you try and push Carrie out of your mind and yet every time you do she pops back up. Not only does she pop back up her presence grows as more of your memories become filled with her presence.

As Carrie's presence in your mind grows her voice enters you're mind telling you how much she loves you how much mommy loves you. Scared you push past Carrie and run towards the front door. Before you can grab it you hear Carrie's voice this time not in you're head but behind you. "Where will you go think about it I'm legally your mother i can just come get you and if you try telling anyone I've brainwashed you do you think anyone will believe you?" Carrie says as you hold the door nob in you're hand. " And even if they do and even if you could have me removed as your mother legally that would take time and money things you don't have Carrie said as you twisted the knob.

"What do you mean?" I said to Carrie in confusion why wouldn't i have the time or money i thought. " you really don't get it" Carrie said laughing at me. Think about it darling I'm legally your mother when you signed those papers i became your legal guardian that means i have full control of everything you owned and the first thing i did was quit your job and lock you out of the accounts" Carrie said as you looked in horror she had everything and yet there was a part of you that thought that made sense after all mommy knows best you thought to yourself.

"No" you screamed falling to your knees holding your head the thoughts of mommy running through your mind. As you scream Carrie touched your shoulder with something in her other hand it was the head phones from earlier. You looked at them scared you knew they had done this and yet you knew that there was no undoing this the jumbled thoughts of Carrie running through your mind. You knew in your head Carrie wasn't really your mom but legally and mentally she was even if a part of you still struggled and yet that struggle was part of the problem as trying to resist was putting a strain on your mind.