Walk in the Park

We did not talk at all until I parked in front of the car. A solid 5 minutes of awkward silence. I'm the adult here I can't be the one afraid of contact.

When I stopped the engine I decided to ask a question to break the ice. I opened my mouth and just then he asked exactly what I was going to say "So why did you try dating on the internet?"

I stammered then I just said "Let's talk about that later okay?" to try to sound mysterious when I was just gonna ask that. "We're here let's get some fresh air."

When we walked out of the car I cursed myself for cutting the conversation short when he was trying to get to know me. I have to find a new subject of conversation, that's the least I could do.

We walked side to side without touching each other while a fresh breeze was caressing our hair.

"So Biggie Small, you said you'd show me your ID. To prove that's not just a dumb nickname."

"Oh yea I forgot about that. I'm going to show you right now but I'm a little vexed you just called my name dumb haha."

Ava you dumb insensitive bitch. I'm so embarrassed right now.

"Oh, I'm sorry I didn't mean to make fun of you I'd never." I take his hand as I'm apologizing.

When I realise that, I hesitate to take my back my hand and rupture the skin contact. But instead he grabbed my head back and pulled me closer to show me his ID.

" Don't sweat it I'm not offended. Here, look. My family name is Small and since my parents were big fans of B.I.G they decided to call me Biggie."

"They must have been hardcore fans to name their son after their idole. You weren't kidding when you said they were eccentric haha."

We continued to walk and talk but now we were holding hands. I was having such a good time by his side I didn't see time flowing by. I was less than 4 centimeters higher than him thanks to my high heels but this little height difference was enough to let me picture him as my kid. And what a lovely one. He was fun and comfortable to be with.

"Your turn Ava."

"OK ask anything."

"If you were going through trial, what crimes would you be accused of ?"

"Pff, what ? That's such a random question."

"Not at all. It will tell me a lot about you."

"I don't know. I think it would probably be because of sexual **** under the effect of ****. Truth is I did something similar once. I like to party and since can get out of hands."

"Wow tell me more."

"No way that's too soon haha. Another time maybe."

"It's funny because you don't seem like the party type. You're so shy."

This remark made me realise what opinion he had of me. I can't blame him since I'm not in my usual condition.

"I'm sorry. You must think I'm boring. I'm not like that usually. When I'm at work or with friends I'm the confident woman who takes on anything and anyone. It's just that I'm nervous right now."

"Don't be sorry, I don't think you're boring at all."

We sat down on a bench.

"You don't mean that. I've been so distant and hesitant with you when you've been straightforward and engaged since the beginning."

"You're just trying to find your marks, it's not normal. We're going to get more comfortable with each other gradually."

He warped his arm around my shoulders and pulled me in a hug with my head resting on his warm chest. I can hear his heart rumbling and feel him shaking. He's actually nervous too.

" I'm not usually like this either Ava. I mean with girls. I'm not comfortable with flirting and romance. I never had a girlfriend. I never had a mother figure either."

He gradually slides his hands from my shoulders to my waist and suddenly it is his head resting on my chest.

" Ava, do you mind if I tell you why I got on this app? "

" Go on Biggie"

"In my studies I do everything I can to be successful. In my friendships I'm confident and social. But I never got to be close with a woman. Whether romantically or with my mother."

He's clenching his fists on the fabric of my dress and burying his face in my boobs. But it doesn't feel sexual. It feels like he's just trying to feel protected. So I hug him back and stroke his hair. Instantly I can feel his fist release my clothes and his arms squeeze me against him instead.

"I hoped I'd find a supportive woman to accompany me. But all the women I talked with on the app were freaks who wanted me to be their toy. Until I found you."

"Biggie, you're a wonderful boy. I promise I'll take care of you. If I got on this app, it was to find someone like you who would hug me like you do and give fill my life. I've been feeling empty lately but with you I know I'll feel better. I wanted to meet somebedoy I could take care of. I'll protect you, I'll support you and I'll nurture you. Alright? "

" Thank you Ava. "

We remained like this for a long time. When it started to be late I lifted his head up and cupped his face in my hands.

" Let me get you something to eat. Just like I promised. "

" Yes that'd be cool. I'm starving. "

We got back into the car and I asked him "Where do you want it? I'll take you anywhere you want."

"Can we go to KFC then?"

"KFC it is then my dear."

While we were riding we stopped at a red light and there was Mercedes AMG that came next to us. There were two men in it dressed in black gears. They put their music loud as hell so I could tell what it was. It was TRINITYVILLE by Laylow, a French Rapper. https://youtu.be/Ta-3VizBGtQ

I don't like rude boys like that who don't give a damn if they wake up the whole city with their music.

"Ava, let's fight them with our own music."

"No I don't want to participate in their disrespect of civil order."

"Come on, let's fight fire with fire. It'll teach them a lesson if we ruin their music."

"I'm not sure that make sense Biggie."

"Then let's do it because it's fun" he grabbed my arm to beg me "Come on, come oooooon."

"My god, you're such a kid."

"I'm just showing my true colors. But what about you, miss I like to party. "

"OK fine. Do what you want, but that's only because I like that side of you."

"Thanks Ava."

He connected the phone to my car and played his own music. It was Nothin' Like Me by Chris Brown and Tyga ft TyDolla$ign https://youtu.be/GZpTS16wdq0

But then I felt a bit dizzy and the song was turned off. The headache got so intense and then suddenly disappeared as if it was never there. I didn't mind it any attention and just drove to the KFC.

When we got our chicken wings served Biggie told me "Thanks Ava" again. And it got to my nerves.

"Why don't you call me mommy anymore?"

"Because when I did it made you feel uncomfortable."

Oh he noticed that and adapted his language in response? Now I feel dumb and cold-hearted that I did not even realise how much effort he's putting to make me feel uncomfortable. I was about to go back to my shy, embarrassed self again but instead sticked to my real self and proudly apologized.

"I'm sorry baby. I wasn't myself then but now I am and I won't like it if you call me by my name again alright?"

"Alright mom." he said with his mouth stuffed with chicken.

After that I drove him to his school and he hopped off there.

"Are you sure you don't want me to drive you home."

"No thanks. I'll find my way from here."

"Okay see you later then Biggie."

"See you mommy."

"Oh and Biggie."

"Yes?"

"What do you think about my car?"

"It's great, it feels so comfy. I thought you had a family when I saw it."

"Thank you baby."