Night reflections

It wasn’t long before the trio were asleep, at least two of the three. Jennifer was finding it hard to rest, she was tired and sleepy but couldn’t bring herself to actually sleep. Her mind couldn’t calm down, there were so many things pounding her on the inside that she couldn’t really think straight. She didn’t like showing her doubts in the open, she kept things like that bottled up so only she herself knew her true feelings.

Jennifer sat up and looked over at Betty and Paul. Paul, in his sleep, had rolled over and his arm was lying across Betty’s upper chest. They were both sound asleep, so she knew she could slip out without being heard.

She slipped out and once again paused and looked down at the other two. She couldn’t help but smile, they looked so happy. Betty was in heaven with her new Master and Paul was having the time of his life. Jennifer was unsure how she truly felt about anything right now, she needed to think.

Jennifer walked up the stairs from the basement and cracked the door open. She was unsure if Paul’s parents had ever come home but wasn’t going to risk freaking them out. She stopped by her backpack and picked up the school robe she had stuffed inside and slipped in on.

Everything was dark, so she had to feel her way through the house. She knew the overall layout, she had been there a few times before. She made her way to the back door that opened out onto the porch. She cracked it open and stepped outside. It was a chilly night and stars tried to light up the sky.

She thought this was the perfect night to actually just sit and watch the heavens. She noticed a set of swings, maybe from when Paul was younger. She hoped the swing would hold her and she sat down, slowly at first, to listen for any creaking noises. Nothing sounded and she sat more comfortably, rocking back in forth in the swing.

Jennifer just sat there, pondering everything that had happened to her over the past few days. Her life had gone from the average and had been turned upside down and shaken. Nothing was the same and would never be the same again.

In some ways, she missed her old life, the innocence she once had but had now been stripped from her. On the other hand, her new life was everything she had dreamed of. She was under the control of a handsome man who she did truly love and he truly cared for her. She wasn’t sure if he loved her as much as she did him but that didn’t really matter to her.

Jennifer was lost deep in thought and must have missed the sound of the door opening and the sound of feet walking across the grass. She was too busy watching the stars and the clouds gently surround the moon and suppress its light in their toxic grip then just as quickly releasing it and moving on their way into the dark night.

It was a dark night; it wasn’t clear and wasn’t bright, it represented her mood.

�Sometimes I wish I was like a star.�

Jennifer didn’t turn her head. She recognized the voice and knew Betty had followed her out.

�Never have to worry, your only job is to float there, day in and day out, watching over the earth and other planets, shining, so people can see in the night and be admired by all. That’s what I have always wanted and partly that seems to be coming true.�

Jennifer knew Betty knew what Jennifer was thinking about and was trying to ease her mind. �I thought you were asleep?�

�I was. I woke as you were going up the stairs. You do know the creak as you go up, right?�

Jennifer didn’t actually know that. �Well, why did you follow me?�

�I wanted to see what you were doing, why are you out here.�

�Thinking. I needed some time.�

�I understand. We all have our times. What’s on your mind?�

This was a welcome sign for Jennifer. Someone she could talk to without it changing their opinion of her. �Everything. Me, you, Paul, everything.�

�Want to tell me?�

�Guess it couldn’t hurt.� She started with the biggest thing on her mind, Paul. �Do you think Paul will change?�

�What do you mean exactly, Jen?�

�I mean power changes people. Almost everyone who gets it wants more. It changes people. Do you think it will change Paul like that?�

�I can’t tell you for sure, you know him better than me.�

�I know, I know, but I can’t help it. Things change.�

Betty felt bad for Jennifer, she obviously had something that only she could deal with. �Just remember, I’ll always be there to help you if you ever want me to.�

Jennifer felt a little better, knowing someone knew how she felt. �Don’t tell Paul anything I said, OK?�

Betty smiled and got up off the swing. �You’re the one in charge. If you don’t want me to, I promise I won’t.�

Jennifer smiled and gave Betty a hug. �You go on back in. I think I’ll stay out here a while longer.�

Betty accepted the hug and followed Jennifer’s order. �See you in the morning.�

Jennifer watched as Betty walked back to the house. Jennifer watched for a second then changed her mind. �Hold up.� Jennifer made a dash to catch up. She put her arm around her shoulder. �We are a team.�

With that Jennifer went back into the house with Betty and drifted to sleep on her own mattress.