Full of pain...and thinking

You are really hurting. Your nipples and your face feel like they are on fire. And your self-respect is almost non-existent. Your brother made it clear that he plans to hurt you much more. What can you do? Telling other people is not an option and you doubt that you can give him now what he wanted before, he enjoys causing you pain too much. You can't sleep anyway so you start to do research on google. It's enough to type "sadism" on some porn sites and you are presented with images of men hurting women with some really crazy stuff and doing really fucked up things. Choking them, hitting them with all kind of sticks, burying them in the ground so deep that only head sticks up, using different devices. The women clearly suffer, some even cry, but, many of them are also having an orgasm and obviously like it. You see a word "painslut" and then type it in the browser, the definition is pretty intuitive "A person who enjoys receiving pain."

You think about all of this for a long hours, concentrating on it helps you to ease feeling of pain a little. You come to the only possible conclusion, you are unfortunately not a painslut, because pain gives you no pleasure. But maybe painsluts can be made. You hope so, because you need to become one and quickly.