Hot Tub

Kaylee let out a playful scream as she carefully made her way out in the subzero weather. This was insanity as I followed after her. For obvious reasons, no one else was out here. There had been some people in the indoor pool, but the outdoor one was deserted. I had been outside for less than five seconds and already I felt like I was going to turn into a human icicle. Kaylee didn’t go to the outdoor pool though, she chose the hot tub, which was even farther away. I chased after her, trying to see through the dim lights on the ground and the falling snow.

She was already lowering herself into the water when I got to her. I dipped a foot into the scalding water. Damn. It was a choice between boiling or freezing to ****. Only Kaylee’s head was visible, her teeth chattering as she floated in the hot water.

“Just get in. The water’s great!”

**** by scalding it was.

It was an odd sensation having a body surrounded by hot water while your head was exposed to freezing weather. I dipped under the water quickly. Surfacing again, I took a deep breath, smiling. Less than a minute later, I had ice forming in my hair.

“This was a terrible idea,” I said as I pressed at my hair. It felt frozen.

“This was a wonderful idea!” she said, laughing. I floated after her as she went towards the far side of the hot tub. “Always wanted to try it, but Mom would rather die and Dad never was interested.”

As I approached, she wrapped her arms around my neck. Looking into her blue eyes, I pouted. “When you said swimming, I didn’t think you meant outside.”

“Why not? The pools are heated here.”

“But…” She waited expectantly. “I can’t even see you in your swimsuit.”

She giggled. “You had all the time to gawk at me on the way here. Have a thing for swimsuits or something?”

I shook my head. “Just the person in it.”

“Mmm. Since when did you become such a sweet talker?”

The next few minutes were a weird slice of heaven. With me sitting on the stone bench that lined the side of the hot tub, Kaylee sat atop my lap. We made out for a long time, the water keeping us warm while the freezing air whirled around us.

Breaking our passionate kisses, Kaylee lifted a hand from the water and ran it over my cheek. “God, I’m so fucking horny right now.” When she kissed me again, it felt different, like she was putting more effort into it. The kisses got heavier, her tongue exploring my lips before invading my mouth. I could feel her body press tighter against me as her arms tightened around me. Her breathing became heavier as she gasped for air between kisses.

Luckily, she didn’t feel the massive boner I was sporting.

We were interrupted by the sound of water splashing. Hoarse laughter followed as another small wave washed against us. So engrossed in each other, we didn’t notice the two others rushing across to hop in the hot tub with us. After settling down, the two newcomers looked at us in surprise.

“A-ah. Hello,” one said with a heavy accent. He sounded uncertain. “Sorry.”

The two began speaking in a different language. I couldn’t understand it, but it sounded like they were chastising each other. To my surprise, Kaylee said something back. From the shock in their faces, they were just as surprised as I was. I’d forgotten her mom was fluent in German and Spanish. I knew Kaylee was pretty good in Spanish since she took it in school as her one ‘easy’ class. I had no idea she knew German too.

After exchanging a few words, Kaylee turned back to me. “They’re here on vacation too.”

“You can speak German?”

“A bit.”

“Doesn’t sound like a bit.”

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

“Like what?”

She gestured to me. “That.”

“Just amazed at how awesome my girlfriend is.”

She rolled her eyes. I leaned forward and kissed her. She happily returned it. The passion from before was lost, but this wasn’t bad either. Through the constantly rising mist and the falling snow, I heard snickering and a few low phrases. Shit. We had an audience now. Not that I was going to stop. Kaylee broke our kiss to kiss my cheek. I felt her breath against my ear as she leaned close. “They are wondering if they are going to get a show.” Pulling away, she looked to gauge my reaction. Stunned, I stared up at her. God, she was serious. The passion was back. She was kissing me again and again. It wasn’t just my lips, but my cheek, then jaw. Slowly, she worked down to my neck.

Seeing them watching from across the hot tub, my body went rigid. Sensing something was wrong, she stopped and looked at me. “What’s wrong?” she whispered.

“They’re watching.”

There was a challenge in her grin. “So? Let them.”

“Kaylee…”

“Scott,” she groaned, kissing me. Breaking the kiss, she lowered her head and took a deep breath. “Sorry. I lost myself a bit there. I just want you so bad…”

I remembered the condoms up in my bag. Maybe her parents were asleep now. I think the bed was out of the question, but there was a couch. If we were quiet—

My thoughts were interrupted by one of the guys saying something. Kaylee laughed, turning her head to face the other two guys. She said something and they laughed. I got the sinking feeling in my stomach that they were talking about me. I knew it was stupid since it was Kaylee, but I hated not knowing what was being said. There was another rapid exchange that ended with Kaylee giving them the finger and the two guys laughing again.

She turned back to me, amused. “I told them to go away so we could continue in peace.”

“Why do I have the feeling they're talking about me?”

“They said if you were having issues, they’d be happy to help out.” She rolled her eyes. “I told them if they wanted to help someone so badly, they could lend a helping hand to their buddy.” Nuzzling my neck, I could feel her lips press against my skin. She stayed like that for a long time. “Scott?” she whispered.

“Hmm?”

She didn’t answer right away. Something was weird about her. The way she was kissing me seemed different in a way I couldn’t put my finger on. Her arms tightened around me. “Do you want another show?”

At first, I thought I misheard her soft whisper. I was already excited from her playful kissing. Her lips were on my shoulder, just above the water. My heart was racing and I struggled to calm myself. She continued her soft kisses for another few seconds before shifting so she was back to my lips. She gave me a single kiss before pressing her cheek against mine. “You have no idea how turned on I am,” she whispered.

“We should—” Her finger against my lip hushed me.

She smiled before giving me a long kiss. “Scott, I want to try something, but you need to remember one thing.”

A few heartbeats passed before she spoke again.

“Eclipse.”

I frowned, remembering she had picked that as our safe word the night before we left. “Eclipse?”

She gave me a quick kiss. “To make sure we are both enjoying ourselves.”

Still confused, I watched as she climbed off me. She said something in German as she floated towards the two men at the other side of the hot tub. They looked surprised as she approached them. Stunned, I watched as they slid away from each other, opening up a space for Kaylee. She wasted no time getting between them. Her eyes lingered on me before turning to the guy on her left. Nothing happened immediately as the three spoke quietly. A few times they laughed. Other times, Kaylee had a giggling fit. I knew what was happening, but I didn’t quite want to believe it.

She was flirting with them.

I was speechless. This wasn’t happening. She couldn’t be serious. This had to be a joke or something. Was she really planning what I thought she was? It certainly seemed that way.

One of the guys said something that caused the other to laugh. I don’t know what he said, but Kaylee was pissed. She stood up and immediately started walking back over to me, arms crossed to guard against the cold. I didn’t know what happened, but I was relieved all the same. Both guys stood up, saying something in a hurry. She turned around and fired something back. The one that said the offending… whatever… looked like he was apologizing. Kaylee said something chastising to both of them before turning back towards me. Seeing me, she hesitated. Turning her back to me, she said something else to which the guys agreed, nodding quickly. The pit in my stomach grew again as she walked back over to them and sat down in her spot between them. She gave them an icy response to whatever they were saying, but that demeanor didn’t last long. The guys were growing bolder. One ran a hand over her shoulder. The other brushed a hand through her hair. The worst thing about watching was she did nothing to stop them. She continued talking as if everything were normal.

It escalated when one ran his hand down her back. She didn’t stop him, still talking to the other guy. A few seconds later, I saw the white top of her bikini floating atop the water. She didn’t react at all at suddenly being topless. Emboldened by his success, he scooted closer to her. I couldn’t see what he was doing, but I knew anyway. I knew where his hands were. What he was touching. Kaylee’s composure was starting to break. She wasn’t talking anymore, mouth parted slightly. The guy she had been talking to closed in as well. He was saying something in a low voice. She didn’t respond, eyes widening. It took me a second to grasp the full situation, to piece together what was happening based on the positions of the two men. The man behind her was playing with her breasts while the man in front was doing something else. Something she was enjoying immensely, her posture shifting as she spread her legs under the water.

Tilting her head back, she moaned. A sharp blow in the freezing air.

Eclipse.

The word was right on the edge of my tongue, frozen by the air around me. My mind screamed it, but my body refused to utter the word, transfixed at what was happening. My mind raged against its cage and the mutinous body that contained it.

The one who had his hand between her legs leaned forward for a kiss. She quickly turned her head, his lips landing against her cheek. Kaylee said something, and the man immediately backed up, muttering something in response.

The two men were clearly enjoying themselves, but I found they were background noise. My attention was completely on Kaylee. The way she leaned against the man behind her for support. How her gentle moans joined the freezing breeze that ran over our exposed heads. The way her hungry eyes locked with the man who’s hand worked between her legs.

She said something that broke the moment. The two looked at her, then at each other. They discussed something quickly. The man who Kaylee had been leaning against seemed to have won whatever disagreement they had. I didn’t have to wait long to figure out what they had been talking about. Kaylee quickly turned and straddled the man. She said a few things to him, leaning her head back to push back the iced pieces of hair from her eyes. Then a hand disappeared underwater and her body lifted up.

I knew what was going to happen next. Already, I was starting to get up. For the first time since this started, I found my voice. “E—”

Her head turned and our eyes locked. I found myself frozen at the sight of her.

I expected to find a woman consumed by lust. She had spent the past several minutes being pampered by two different guys. Instead, I found something I never expected. Fear. It wasn’t just fear though. I saw uncertainty, concern, and embarrassment in our wordless exchange. The way she looked at me, did she want me to say it? Did she want me to bring this twisted ‘show’ to an end? Or maybe she was afraid I would end it. That I was about to cockblock her from getting something she was clearly craving. I just didn’t understand her. Why didn’t she just say something? Why was she just looking at me like that? I was going crazy. I wasn’t a mind reader. What did she want from me? What did she want me to do? This had to be a test. What was the right answer? Stopping her? Letting her continue?

Kaylee had given me two options. In the end, I chose the third and worst option. Nothing. Torn by indecision, my choice was taken from me by the natural progression of things.

She was still waiting when the man entered her. I could see because her eyes widened and her lips parted as she gasped. Below her, the man said something but they all faded away again. My eyes were only on her. Seeing how I wasn’t going to say anything, she had turned away again. Her attention was on the man below her. I wanted her to turn around. To look me in the eye so that I could see what she was thinking, what she was feeling. I needed to see something. Instead, I only saw the back of her. She leaned towards the man so she could better grind against him.

His arms wrapped around her, pulling her against him. The water rippled away from them as the man bucked his hips against her. Kaylee moaned in response. Over and over. All I could do was watch. Guilt and shame crushing my lungs and gut. My cock strained painfully against the fabric of my swim trunks as the erotic gasps and moans redirected the blood to where it was needed. I watched with growing anger. Why wasn’t she looking at me? I needed to see her. To stare into her eyes. I needed to see the rapture on her face. To see the pleasure as it overwhelmed her.

Revulsion filled me as I realized what I was thinking.

The man groaned loudly, saying something in his own language. Kaylee responded quickly. I wished I understood. I needed to know—

“Cum in me,” she said, her words colder than the air that froze the water in my hair. I knew it wasn’t for the man. I’m sure he understood from the context, but there was only one man here who would really understand her words.

“Kaylee.”

“Fuck,” she gasped. “Almost there.”

“Kaylee, stop.”

She wasn’t listening to me. It was like she was ignoring me, her attention fully focused on the man below her. He was grunting louder. Lifting his hands out of the water, he grabbed her shoulders and pressed her down against him. He shouted something out that needed no translation. “Fuck. Oh fuck. Fill me with your cum,” Kaylee gasped as she accepted the man's seed with a poised grace that reminded me of her mother. Her head tipped back like she was looking up at the sky as she let out a content moan. Below her, the man stopped his small jerks against her and released her with a satisfied sigh.

“Mmm. Nice, but not enough for me,” Kaylee said aloud. Reaching up, she tapped the man’s cheek as if thanking him for a good effort. Her head turned, not to me, but the other man. “Fortunately…”

“Kaylee, please,” I called out. This time, she paused and I felt a hope surge within me. Finally, she was listening.

Her head turned slightly so she could see me out of the corner of her eye. “I’m not finished yet.” She turned her back to me, silencing me once more.

My teeth chattered together as I watched everything repeat again, but with another man. I thought that after watching her with the first one, this wouldn’t be as bad but as I watched, I could only feel it was worse. Her cries were like needles against my skin. The sour feeling in my stomach turned to nausea as I watched her enthusiastic movements atop the man. The entire time, my mind struggled to comprehend why I was so revolted. This wasn’t like with Sean. It certainly wasn’t like it was with Adam.

My eyes fell away, no longer bothering to watch as I felt a crushing pressure collapse around me. There was something wrong, but my mind couldn’t comprehend what drove me to anger. Closing my eyes, I listened to her moans and the sound of the water splashing from their vigorous movements. Everything was there. I could feel it all. Disgust. Anger. Sadness. I was missing something, and it made all the difference. Without it, the three simply swirled around a void within me. They weighed me down, pulling me deeper and deeper into a suffocating depression.

I don’t know why I noticed it at that moment. Perhaps it was because my mind was unburdened by what it was seeing and focused only on what was heard. Kaylee was making all the right noises of a woman enjoying herself, but inside I knew it was the source of what was wrong. Her heart wasn’t in it. I was sure she was enjoying herself, but it was an empty enjoyment devoid of satisfaction. It seemed I was on the edge of something important. Circling, closer and closer, but never actually finding what I was searching desperately for. Then I remembered why this was all so familiar. This was like watching one of her videos, only a thousand times more intense.

My thoughts were broken by Kaylee’s loud gasp. She was begging for the man to cum in her. Her movements were an encouragement for him. Her pleads weren’t for him though, they were for me. A hollow attempt, even to my ears, like she was going through the movements of a familiar dance that she had lost passion for.

Eyes lifting, I watched my girlfriend threw her head back as a second man emptied himself within her. Silence swept over the steaming hot tub like the arctic air, seeming to freeze everyone in place. Both men had sated their lust, grins on their faces as they relaxed deeper into the water.

Pulling herself off the second man, Kaylee sank back into the water. She reemerged a few steps away, brushing water and hair from her face. There was a brief exchange from the three. At the end, the two guys pulled their trunks up and left with what I could only assume was thanks and goodbye. I didn’t watch them go, hearing the sound of wet footsteps against concrete fade and disappear. Kaylee was still facing away from me. I think she was afraid to turn around. Afraid to see what reaction she would see on my face. It was a mutual feeling. I found myself fearing not what I saw, but what I wanted to see. Even now, I didn’t know what I really wanted.

Snapping out of whatever thoughts she had, I saw her start to move. She looked lost at first, spinning around in a slow circle as she scanned the water. Only after she slowly bobbed her way through the water did I realize what she was searching for: her bikini top. In an agonizingly slow pace, she headed back over to me. Not once did out eyes meet. The mist and snow parted as she approached, giving me a clear view of her face. There was a shy curiosity there as she searched my face.

“Kaylee,” I whispered.

In a moment of courage, she met my eyes. “Did you like it?”

What kind of question was that? Earlier, that might have pissed me off since I would have mistaken her curiosity for malice. Beyond her surface emotions was something else. A genuine curiosity. She wasn’t trying to rub it in my face or make me feel worse. She genuinely wanted to know and I felt compelled to answer her in equal measure.