I have to see her

After hanging up the phone I take a deep look inside of myself what had my life become? Where was all of this going? Where did I go wrong? And what am I going to do now? I hate Chloe for what she did to me so why do I want to see her so badly? To be perfectly honest with myself most of these questions can only be answered via long stints of therapy but what I do know is that I need answers. My new relationship with Athena feels like a mistake..... But I still can't help but love her...... My relationship with Chloe was a mistake........ But I still can't help but to forgive her. For now I need to see her.

Getting fully dressed I prepare myself for what's going to happen today. I swing my bedroom door open and head downstairs I approach the kitchen where Athena is sitting..... Athena hates Chloe she won't just lend me her car so that I can go see her what should I do...... Then it hits me I go over to the fridge grab the eggs and "accidentally" drop the open carton on the floor.

"Shit" I yell out in surprise

"Don't worry about it cuz I'll clean it up" Athena says as she bends down and starts picking up egg shells

"Ok thanks give me your keys I'll go pick up new ones" I say crouching down to make eye contact

"There on the rack" Athena says meekly clearly engrossed in the eye contact.

"I'll be right back" I say kissing her before I get up and head out to the car.

I actually can't believe that worked we live at a fucking farm there's god damned chickens everywhere.... Athena must really love me to get that easily distracted.

Turning on the car I start driving to the clubhouse on the way I start to think about turning back what am I doing what am I going to say why can't things just go back to being simple again? But before I can answer any of these questions I keep asking myself I arrive at the clubhouse. Right inside this building is probably the worst mistake of my life and I'm about to give it more of a chance to make it up to me than I've ever given any mistake in my entire life... Now or never I guess.