An Undeniable Need

Summer vacation was slowly slipping away now, and I continued to think about the car and I found myself deciding that I would do it again, but was it for the car or was it because I want to be with him again. I continued to be conflicted, I didn’t know what to do. I did want the car, but still felt it was wrong to be doing, but I realized if I wanted the car, I would probably have to do it again. However, I think deep down I wanted to feel him in me again, but why. Maybe it was because he paid so much attention to me or because he was the first person that I had sex with, in anyway, it didn’t take long before I had made a decision to go over to his apartment again.

The next day, I went up to the game room to see if John was there; in a way I was trying to show him I was still interested, and as soon as I entered the game room and looked around, we saw each other. He was chatting up a young man, but soon John approached me and asked how I was doing. In conversation, John said, “You haven’t been around lately.”

I simply told him that I had been busy and he seemed to understand, and when John suggested that I should come by his place again, I was hesitant but eventually agreed to stop by later that day. He was visibly excited and asked me what time I was thinking about coming over. I became nervous and when I didn’t reply right away, he quickly suggested that he could leave now and drive us over there.

I couldn’t do it, I thought, but he eventually convinced me it would be okay, and we left. Along the way, we didn’t really talk much but to try to break the tension, he ask if I wanted to stop for a bite to eat. I simply said, “No, I’m okay,” and as he put his hand on the seat by me, he said, “I’m glad you still want to hang out.

We were now close to his apartment complex and as we pulled in and parked, he hurried us inside. As I stepped inside, and John closed the door behind us, I froze, I felt trapped, but when John said, “Go ahead and have a seat,” he also directed me over to the couch.

John had followed me and as I sat down, he moved over, sitting on the couch, relatively close but not real close. We talked about stuff, nothing in particular and I started to feel more comfortable being there. When our conversation paused, John said, “I’m really glad you wanted to come over again,” and reaching over, he touched my leg.

I became a little anxious, realizing he might be looking for a way to get me to have sex with him again, and when he inched closer I knew he was close to asking me just that. As I looked over at him, he smiled and said, “Hey, why don’t I show you the apartment real quick.”

I nodded my head and John stood up quickly and ushered me over to the kitchen area, which was right off the living room. He then said, “Come on,” and started walking toward what looked like the bedroom.

I was nervous, but followed him into the bedroom and as we went in, it was dark and as I moved further into the room, he closed the door. This caused me to quickly turn, only to see him walking toward me, and as he got close, he put his hands on my shoulders and said, “I think we both know why you decided to come over.”

We looked at each other and after a brief pause, he leaned into me, and attempted to give me a kiss, but I turned my head to the side. John simply kissed me on the cheek and grabbing my chin, he gentle turned my head, and told me to close my eyes. Nervously, I closed my eyes and as he kissed me on the lips, I winced, pulling away slightly.

“I have wanted to be with you again, he said, and then said, “I think maybe you feel the same way.”

I was scared and not knowing what to say, he again told me to close my eyes and as he again kissed me, pushing his tongue in my mouth. I was hesitant but felt an urge to put my tongue in his mouth too, and as I did he grabbed my crotch fondling my cock through my shorts. I’m sure he felt I was getting hard and when we stopped kissing, he tried to take off my shirt, in which I obligingly help him with. As I took my shirt over my head, he quickly unbutton my shorts, and let them fall to the floor.

I kicked them aside, and I looking at him, he smiled and kissed me again. He now took off his shirt and his pants and then knelt down, feeling my cock through my boxers. He eventually pulled down my boxers and as my cock flopped out, he continued to fondle it and my balls.

John now stood up and as I watched him take off his boxers, and when I looked down to see he cock, he put his hands on my shoulders and as I looked at him, he pushed me down until I was on my knees.

His cock was hard and I wanted to feel it, and I think he knew it. He held his cock out toward my face and said, “Go ahead, you know you want to feel it.”

I looked up at him and eventually took ahold of his cock. He in turn put his hand on mine, guiding me to start rubbing it. He said, “Yea, that’s it.”

He then took hold of the back of my head and pulled my head toward him as he guide his cock toward my mouth saying,”Go ahead, open your mouth.”

He put his cock against my lips and as I opened my mouth, he pushed it in. I was scared, thinking he’s going to cum in my mouth as he started to move it in and out of my mouth. However, he didn’t do it long and eventually pulled away, letting his cock slip out of my mouth , and as he pulled me to my feet, he said, “I want to be in you again.”

I wanted to feel it again too, but I was apprehensive too. He turned me around so I was facing the bed, and then he bent me over the edge, rubbing my ass cheeks, and spreading my ass to expose my tight little hole. I wanted it and when he gentle pushed his finger in me and rubbed his cock against my hole, I knew what was coming.

He now told me to get on the bed and as I did, he too climbed on with me, but this time he had me lay on my side. I was confused but as I laid down on my side and he got right behind me. I could feel his cock against my ass. It was hard and when he started to dry hump my crack and I wanted him in me. I tried to push back trying to show him I was ready.

John ow leaned back and Glancing over I saw him grabbing some lube off the nightstand. I wanted to feel his cock going in me and when he put KY on my hole, I pushed back, which spread my ass a little, wanting him to finger me.

It felt good and as he rubbed the head of his cock against my hole, he told me to relax. I eagerly pushed back, wanting him to put it in me, wanting to feel the pain, and he obliged. As I relaxed, and he pushed into me, and his cock slip in, it started to hurt, which made me pull away but I wanted him in me. He continued to slowly push into me and as he did, he reached around me and took hold of my cock.

John asked me how I was doing and even though it continued to hurt, I old him I was okay. He let go of my cock now and started to fuck me. It felt good, I wanted to feel him cum in me, so I tried to move back and forth helping him fuck me. His cock slipped out a few times, but he always put it back in, and kept trying to fuck me as we laid on our side. Suddenly he stopped and pushed me to lay on my back. “What was he doing,” I though, but then he **** a pillow under me, raising me up a little.

John moved in front of me and started to fondle my cock. He then positioned himself between my legs and told me to raise them up. As I did, he put them on his shoulders and leaned into me, pushing his cock into me again. It hurt and as he pushed further into me, he leaned forward and kissed me. He immediately started to fuck me hard and fast; it hurt and I took my legs off his shoulder. He grabbed my thighs, continuing to fuck me. He was breathing hard, I knew he wanted to cum and when he leaned forward again to kiss me he said, “I’m going to cum.”

He gave a few quick thrust as we kissed and then he pushed into me and held me close. He was cumming and I could feel his cock faintly jerking inside me. John leaned back and as he moved back and forth again, his cum seeped out of me. He was done and as he kissed me again, he slowly rose up, taking his cock out of me, and squeezed a small amount of cum out onto my cock.

John was out of breath, as he moved from between my legs and pushed them together. He now rolled on his side next to me, feeling on my chest and my cock. I started to feel his cum seep out of me, so I tried to squeeze my cheeks, wanting to hold it in. John I think knew there was something wrong and when he asked me how is was doing, I immediately told him I needed to go use the bathroom.

John slid off the bed and as soon as I got off the bed and started walking, his cum and the KY started to leak out and run down the inside of my thigh. I tried to tighten my ass as I quickly walked into the bathroom, to clean up. A feeling of embarrassment came over me as I sat there for a second, but quickly gathered my emotions, knowing I needed to back to the bedroom.

It was dark now, but I could see John was under the cover waiting for me. As I approached the bed he said, “Come on,” throwing open the covers, inviting me to get into bed with him.

I hesitated but got in bed with him, and pulling me close, he asked if I was okay. I quickly told him I was okay and as I did, he started fondling my cock, eventually stroking me. I wanted to cum and I thank he knew it. John kissed my and pushed me to lay on my back and casting the covers back, he sat up, continuing to give me a handjob.

I tried to concentrate, I wanted to cum and when I closed my eyes he said, “Cum for me, let me see you cum.”

John put his mouth on my cock and kept stroking me; I was close, it felt good. He again said, “Cum for me.”

I started to buck my hips, trying to fuck his mouth, I told him I was going to cum. He stopped sucking my cock but kept stroking me, as I continued to buck my hips. “I’m cumming,” I said, as I shot my load on my stomach. He slowly stroked my cock now as cum spilled out onto my stomach. It felt good and looking down, his hand and my cock was covered with cum as well as my stomach. John eventually stopped and gently rubbed my cum all over my stomach. He then asked, “Have you tasted your cum before?”

Looking at him I shock my head no, I had wanted to but never got up the nerve to try it. John reached his hand up and had me lick some of the cum from his hand.

It tasted salty and as I swallowed some, I winced a little. Looking up at me, John remarked,”That was a lot,” and asked, “Did you like that?” I nodded and said, “Yea, that felt good.”

John then licked some of the cum off my cock and my stomach and moved up to show me all the cum in his mouth. In a muted voice he said, open your mouth.”

I was **** but as he started to kiss me, he stuck his tongue in my mouth, and cum leaked into my mouth. I didn’t want it but when he told me to swallow it, I leaned up and cringing, I did it. I was turned off and as we laid there I thought to myself, “I want to leave,” but how.

It was getting late and I eventually I told John that I needed to go. He again tried to convince me to stay but that feeling of being with another guy took over; I had to go.

As I started to leave, John said, “I hope you’ll come over again,” and I simply said, “Yea,” as I got dressed.

Walking toward the front door and I opening it, John grabbed my hand, stopping me. As I turned, and our eyes met he said, “Maybe next time you can stay the night.”

I nodded and quickly headed home. I had had a nice time even though my emotions got the better of me, I did want to spend the night with him, just not now.