Post Nut Clarity

Vivian and I lay in silence. It felt like an eternity yet was only a couple minutes. I felt guilty and didn't want to say anything. Here I was, fucking my friends girlfriend, taking glee in the idea of humiliating. I felt better than him. I didn't like it.

"We shouldn't have done that," I say as I stare blankly at the ceiling.

Viv sighs, "I think it was just what I needed"

I look over at her, "Don't you feel guilty?"

She rolls over and wraps her arm around me, her tiny naked breasts pressing into me. "I never said I didn't feel guilty. It's just that I needed a release."

"That's all this was then, a release. Giving up a whole relationship, just to get rid of your pent up sexual frustration." I was mad. Viv was being blatantly selfish.

Viv was taken aback, "Its not like that!"

"Then what's it like Viv?"

"I still want to be with Jesse," her eyes start to tear up.

"Then why cheat?"

"Oh so this is all on me, I didn't see you stopping me. He's your friend. I didn't record it, you did." She points out my involvement.

"Yes and I regret it, I'm a fucking dickhead" I admit it, this was also my fault. And I was a dickhead.

"Well I don't regret it!" Viv exclaims, "I've never felt more fulfilled."

"What!" Why would she even say that?

She grabs my head and turns it towards her. She looks at me, and kisses me, "because we can't resist each other. You love it as much as me. Even if it destroys us or our relationships. You want to be my bull."

My mind felt drunk, I knew what she was saying was wrong. But I also can't deny it. I won't be able to stop any of this. I don't have the self control. If she wanted to, I'd fuck her again no hesitation. There's was only one thing I could say, "just promise me, it'll stay between us. I don't want to hurt anyone"

"I promise," she looks at me and kisses me again, "now I think I need more of that big cock"

Me and Viv must of had sex at least 5 times that day. Each time I came inside of her. I don't know why but I couldn't resist her. But that wasn't all, I seemed to not have any refractory period. I was ready to go again in seconds. Not that Viv minded. Nevertheless by the time I went home, I was sweaty, and reeked of sex.