Thinking through what happened

Once in the shower, I couldn't help but walk through events of the party in my mind. {if blowjob=false} {if followed=false} It was clear that trying to debate Brandon was a futile endeavor. All I had achieved was to rouse my own anger and provide him with entertainment. Starting today, I would have no more contact with the douchebag! Satisfied with my decision I instead focused on my plans with Jamie this weekend.{else} Following him up those stairs had been a mistake. It had given him the wrong impression of my intentions. Closing my eyes, I couldn't help but image the sight of his erect member just a few feet in front of me. It shouldn't be possible to have a cock that beautiful. Confronted with it I had instinctively ran away. I had a horrible feeling that if I hadn't escaped when I did, I might have done something truly irredeemable. At least I could understand how Brandon could be so cocky, he probably had women throwing themselves at him with a dick like that.

Thinking about it I could feel a throbbing heat from my groin. {if third_party_sex=true}My activities with Jamie last night had not helped to satiate the leftover arousal from my encounter with Brandon's dick.{endif} Lost in thought my hands started to wander, one found an erect nipple, the other my aching pussy. As I started stroking myself, erotic images came unbidden to my mind. I was back in that room, Brandon sitting exposed in front of me, but this time I didn't run. Kneeling in front of him, I took him into my mouth and started sucking. In my imagination I could take him flawlessly deep in my throat, bobbing up and down as he groaned. I continued my ministrations as I felt my orgasm building. My tongue hanging out, I imagined him cumming large quantities of cum down my throat, and as I did my entire body convulsed with pleasure. My knees gave out underneath me and I ended up sitting on the floor in the shower panting and relishing in the afterglow.

After a few minutes I got back to my feet, feelings of guilt suddenly dominating my mind. Turning the water completely cold I tried to wash away the shame, to no avail.{endif} {else} Viewing them calmly with some distance, my actions yesterday seemed incomprehensible, even to myself. The combination of alcohol, the passions aroused by the debate and Brandon's insufferable attractiveness had caused me to do something irredeemably stupid. There was nothing I could do to change that now, but I could make sure it never happened again. It was a one-time event, caused by a catastrophic lapse of judgment. I would make sure of it!{endif}