Intrusive thoughts fun times :D

"You're the best John" my cute little maid says snuggling up to me as we lay in our seats, looking cuter than usual. My guess is the after glow of sex but also most likely because her bery huggable body is being pressed on me right now.

"Hehe only the best for you darling." Deciding to give Wendy a little kiss on the forehead letting her rest her head on my chest and having the subtle scent of strawberries radiating of her when my mind starts to drift into..... much darker thoughts

she hasn't complained about anything so far and seems really happy about it, but I cam't shake the feeling that I'm going to lose her like everyone else

Heart pounding as the spiral of dark thoughts grow bigger.... bigger.... and bigger, more worries of losing the love of my life, my best friend, my darling Wendy.

".....John?" A very concerned amazing girlfriend asks with a hug and kiss on the cheek pulling me back to reality "are you ok?"

"Of course I am" I don't want to worry her but she definitely saw through that

"I called your name a few times and your heaet was pounding... are you hiding something? You know I'm here to support you John" Looking worried.

Wait she doesn't look worried about me hiding something it looks like she knows what it's about... I shoulf probably bottle it again I don't want to worry her

"I promise darling it-" wanting to reassure her when she interrupts me smiling softly with a gentle kiss.

"I'm not going to leave you John I love you with all my heart I swear" taking my hand and giving it a light reassuring squeeze as she brings it to her heart letting it feel it's fast beats "I still get so happy to see you that my headt beats like this when I see you." She smiles

"I know... that's why i don't want to lose you so much."

.... wait how did she know that's what my problem was?!? Was she actually listening to all those breakdowns I had with her?!?!

My heart melts just a little bit more from this, i think it's just mush now

"Wendy.... you really payed attention to our conversations didn't you" I smile weakly and hug her tighter still.

"Yeah you're my best and one of my only friends, I want to be here for you don't worry i will always be with you" kissing my forehead now giving me nice little tingles "I know a lot of your friends had left you in the past and I remeber what happened with your ex, I want you to know I'm here for you."

Bless her heart I love that she's trying so hard, but...... I really didn't want to think about my ex right now it always makes me so fucking mad that i need to.....

"John I-it hurts please let g-go" hearing her whimpers and a little bit of tears form in her eyes from the pain bringing me snapping me back into reality and letting go breathing heavily covering my face with my hands

Author's note:

GUESS WHO'S BACK? Sorry for those that were waiting on updates to the story and I know this is a small one but I have these random bursts of inspiration and now is one of those, with better writing skills, I'M BACK AND I'M HERE TO STAY A WHILE WHOOOO!!!