Of Course

That was how you found yourself sitting on the edge of your bed with Angela.

“Do you live alone?”

The question made you realise you had been sitting in silence for a long time and you snapped your head around to look at Angela.

She was wearing the same clothes she had been when you last saw her in the church but now when you look at them you can’t help but wonder if they had always been so form fitting. If her top had always clung to the outline of her breasts so closely.

“My parents are away on holiday,” you reply. Feeling yourself stammer just slightly. “Going to be back in a day or two I think.”

That slight tremor in your voice gets to you. You are better than that! You think to yourself as you try to recall the way you had felt during the day. The way you had felt when you had shown her the video when you had confronted her in the first place.

“Oh, ok.” Came the weak response from Angela as the silence closed in once again.

“I’m sorry about today,” you said, speaking without thinking now, running on tension alone. “I shouldn’t have shown you that video but I just...I just couldn’t stand to keep seeing you get walked all over!”

“I’m glad you did…” Angela suddenly replied. “I needed to see it, needed to face up to it all. God!” She let out a choked sob, looking up at the ceiling as she implored. “Ever since that night, I wanted it. God forgive me I don’t think I can fight it anymore!”

She subsided, again leaving a silence that you tried to fill.

“You mean the night we…?” You let the question hang and got a nod in return, the thought that she had been thinking about you sending a thrill through your body. “Is that what you came here for?”

The question was bold but it was the only one that seemed worth asking and you had expected her to refuse, to push away and leave but instead, she simply nodded.

“I can’t,” She began, her voice shaking like a leaf. “Break my vow again but I won’t stop you from doing as you see fit.”

You reached out then, placing a gentle hand on her knee, feeling her tense under it as you leaned in closer.

“Are you asking me to...take the lead?”

She nodded and you realised that she was, in her own muddled up way, asking you to sleep with her.