Normality

That evening they talked about her visit in more detail over dinner. Not the nitty gritty but it was a chance for them both to check in with how the other one is feeling.

"It's really hard on me but I love it. I have all sorts of fears but now we're sitting together and things feel normal they ebb away a little" said Tom "How about you?"

"What about me?" asked Sarah.

"How do you feel about the whole thing?"

Sarah thought for a moment "honestly I feel like I got the best deal. I feel a little bad that I get to go and have amazing sex and you just play with yourself." She sighed "No I get what you mean. It's tricky sometimes negotiating what I should or shouldn't do. I don't want to upset you. Well, upset you more than you are willing to be upset."

"Well you are doing great as far as I'm concerned. Even when it feels a little harsh like listening to you laughing with him when you didn't hang up but honestly it just adds a little spice to the dish and it hurts but in a kind of good way."

"That's good to know" she said but didn't expand further as she was awash with guilt over the things she had called out in the heat of the moment. It's not like I meant any of those things, did I? She looked at Tom, he meant the world to her but had he diminished a little in her respect? She shook that thought out of her head. If we are judging character flaws I'd come off far worse, getting off on sleeping with another man and insulting my husband for titillation. Still, it is kind of fun. She'd never found fun in the putting down of other people but somehow when she was with Jim it made it funny and exciting , like shouting at the neighbour. She would have died before doing something like that before him.

"You okay? You've gone quiet."

Tom's words snapped her out of her thoughts "Yea, just a bit tired. It was a busy night."

Speaking of nights, her work kept her busy for a few days a bit of light flirting with Jim by text was all she managed and they still hadn't sorted out another date. She realised she should probably check in with Tom before she organised another. That felt like a bit of a pain. She didn't want to check in with Tom. She felt a bit guilty thinking that but it was true. She wanted to be able to pop around to Jim's for a quickie or meet him for lunch. She decided she would raise it with him at some point. If she spun it correctly he might even be into the idea of giving her that freedom.

Jim had apologised but said it was crunch time in the office and he would be working pretty much all the time for a week or two but he'd spoil her rotten when he got the chance. This put a little break on Sarah's desire to tease Tom and they actually managed to have some regular sex. Tom wasn't as good as Jim at fucking but he was generous with foreplay and it was nice to be a couple again for a bit.

She didn't bring up the idea of being free to see Jim whenever she wanted. The atmosphere in the relationship was normality so she embraced it. They worked, ate, slept and made love. It was like going on holiday but after a couple of weeks she found herself getting a little bored. It was like starting a new hobby. You just start to get good at it and now you want to do it all the time and suddenly something gets in the way. It's not the end of the world but you just want to be doing that thing. She couldn't help the feeling that she'd just like to be doing Jim.

She thought about maybe suggesting they try going to a bar and seeing if she can pick up a guy and maybe trying that side of cuckolding but she was a bit uncertain about it. Jim had been easy, he had shown up at the right time or maybe the right time appeared because of Jim but either way he had come on to her and ending up in bed with him had been a breeze. Getting chatted up in a bar or hooking up on Tinder was a whole new step and felt like hard work right now.

One day she received a message from Jim saying that it shouldn't be too long before they can arrange a date and had she given any more thought to dressing like he wanted. They were lying in bed together at the time and Sarah said "Oh yea, I forgot to tell you about this bit from my time with Jim."

Tom's interest was instantly peaked. She hadn't mentioned Jim or even teased him for a couple of weeks so he had assumed that she wasn't bothered right now. He had ben a bit disappointed but he was **** to push her. She had already done so much to fulfil his dirty fantasy that he didn't feel he could push her for more at least not so soon. Now she had brought it up and he was intrigued "What's that?" he asked trying not to sound too enthusiastic.

"Well Jim clearly has a thing for slightly trashy girls. He lent me this robe that belonged to an ex and it was pink and super short and it really fired him up. He asked that next time we meet if I could dress up more... I don't know, more bimbo like?"

"So you were planning to see him again?"

Sarah looked at him confused "Yea, I thought you would have assumed that? That's okay isn't it."

"No, I mean yea, that's great. You hadn't said much after the last weekend so I assumed you were not bothered but it's great you want to."

Sarah was amused by his gawky enthusiasm "So you are still enjoying this?"

Tom went serious and turned to her "You are the most beautiful and erotic person in the world and you have gone out of your way to make my fantasy a reality. You are a natural at it and I think I'm the luckiest guy in the world to be blessed with a wife who is so understanding. I am enjoying it, really enjoying it please have no doubts that even when I'm suffering that I am enjoying it."

Sarah was moved by his earnest words. Her eyes misted and she reached over and put her hand on his face and kissed him. "You silly man" she said.

They looked at each other for a while before Tom said "You were saying something about dressing up?"

"Oh yea. Well, get this, he actually asked me to dress like that all the time. I think it was a trying to humiliate you thing by making me more to his tastes. I told him I wasn't prepared to do that but I did say I'd dress up for him when we get a chance for another date."

Tom was reeling from this. He was actively trying to change Sarah. It was one of the hottest things he had heard. "Why did you turn him down for the rest?"

"It just seemed a step too far, changing my style and I wasn't happy that he wanted me to be different in front of you." She looked at him "Are you telling me you wouldn't mind?"

Tom wasn't sure what to say "I see your reasons, I don't know, maybe I'd mind maybe I wouldn't. I think it's more a case of yes I would mind but a part of me would enjoy it."

Sarah laughed "You are a kinky one aren't you? What made you like this?"

Tom thought about the coin and how he had made her so beautiful he no longer felt worthy of her. "It's probably just a thing about getting older. You don't feel as unsure of yourself as you do when you are younger. Just more confident to tell it as it is" he lied.

Sarah took a moment to think about this "Maybe you're onto something there. I don't know if I'd have felt secure enough to do this when I was younger."

"So what about dressing up?"

"I'm definitely going to do it when we next meet, he gave me some money to buy some clothes and stuff so I should go shopping I guess."

"And the rest of it."

She eyed him with a shrewd gaze "Are you horny?"

He threw back the covers to show his erection "Guilty."

"I'm just not convinced by doing it full time, it feels a bit much."

Tom nodded "Yea I get it. Any chance you could help me with this?" he pointed at his erection."

"No, we already did it tonight I can't be bothered. Go and find some nice captions to wank over. They might give you some ideas. Try not to wake me when you come back to bed."