No protections

I reached into my handbag, and my hand played with the single, plain thick condom that I brought.

"Honey, you said to be honest and come clean." He may be speaking, but I wasn't listening. I was more focused on the generic condom that is in my hand inside my purse. It suddenly felt utterly unnecessary. "Excuse me, Miss, I will be your partner today." I turned to see a big buff black man. He must be a full six foot seven at least and all muscle while my husband caps out at five foot eight at best, and even though Chris isn't out of shape, he certainly wasn't ripped like this man. With that, my mind was made up. I quickly took my hand out of my purse and handed it to my husband, "Here, honey, I won't be needing this."

I notice my husband's eyes get huge as he sees what I had just given him. But before he could say something, the man had already guided me into the other room.

The man, "ok, miss this room has some special conditions I need to know before we can start." He added, "what will your safe word be?"

Just then, my cell phone went off inside my purse with my husband's personal ringtone, causing me to jump and say, "Chris!"

As the man asks his next question, I quickly read the text messages' What is the meaning of this?' and answered with 'we are husband and wife we should have the same number of children. You have two so.."

I know the man's question had something to do with limits, but I wasn't really listening and too ashamed to ask him to repeat it. So I blurted out "Nothing" as my phone rang again.

'But he is black! And I'm well... not.'

'Honey, your affair was very public and poured a lot of shame to me… it only fair that you feel the same thing.'

At the same time, the man continues, "Oh really… ok, hand me any protection you want me to wear, and I'll go get ready."

I finally turned my phone off and put it away. "Ah, I wasn't really planning on using any." I noticed his eyebrows raised before he speaks, "Well, you're clean, and I got checked this morning, and I'm clean, but I am going to need you to sign something saying you won't come after me if you do conceive."