Maybe but not now

Percy's mind was in a whirlwind of contradiction.

"Yes" instinctually Percy said

"No" The logical part of his brain, jumped in

"Maybe?" The appealing part of his brain.

Percy Didn't know what to say and that infuriated him, on the one hand he wanted to say yes, He wanted to beg.

To plead To be fucked by Artemis and be her personal concubine

But on the other hand, He was too young. And he didn't know if he has the protections that prevented Artemis From just up and leaving him, because ancient laws .

He wanted to say yes, To let that fire And beauty in artemis's eyes increase tenfold, But mothering a child is a lot different than just having sex and giving birth. It requires a long time Of care and attention, And if he didn't have any Of the protections from ancient laws then he would end up as a single mother alone.

A whore.. unable to be visited by a beloved. The exact opposite of what he wanted.

Secondly, If he was to mother the child, Then he would become the best mother he ever could be. And that means putting the child before the sex.

Before his job, Because that was his baby, That's what's Sally did for him. His mother was his greatest inspiration. And he would love to do the same for his own offspring. But that would take time. Time and money that Percy didn't have in abundance.

Percy Didn't want to end up single lonely mother like his mom, he want to stay with His partner for the rest of his days.

He wanted to share the responsibilities of parenting a child A human being, A product of Union of love.

_He didn't think he was ready for it.- - - - - -

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"No. " He finally said out loud His voice resolute

"What? "

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Mistress, I love you. I love what we have, But right now I don't think I'm sober enough to come to a good decision. I mean that. I love this! I love everything you know. But I can't do it. Not right now.

I know I may have disappointed you, And I hate to see you like this. But Not right now. I I need to get a better head space It's just right now. This is too much for me

With that, He jumps out of the Chariot ( the fucking Chariot moon )into the Sea.

Artemis was shocked. She placed her head into her hands, And she cried.

Stupid stupid. stupid . fuck” She berated herself.