Lacrima (artificial) Dragonslayer magic

You're one of the few Dragonslayers and even though it's artificial your magic is extremely powerful. And even though many consider it fake or cheating you did pay for it. Thinking back on the pain and hate you received because of this you're you're wondering if there would even a be anyone willing to pay you for helping them out. You feel almost as though not being able to use magic at all would be better than your fate. But as your depressed gaze drifts back to the form you realize you still have to specify what element you're using...