Journal Entry 18

Journal Entry 18: October 23rd

I feel a excited about going back to school tomorrow. As much as I hate to admit it, I keep thinking about Mark's face and the way he looked at me during that test. It's like his image is burned into my brain, and I can't seem to shake it off. I've been trying to come up with ways to apologize to him and make things right, because the whole situation was entirely my fault.

Maybe I could bake him some cookies or bring him a cup of coffee in the morning? Or maybe I could offer to stay after school and help him with his homework? I just want to do something to show him that I care and that I'm sorry for overreacting.

On an unrelated note, I did something today that I haven't done in months. I masturbated. It was very cathartic, and for a brief moment, I felt like all my problems had disappeared. Honestly, it was much better than I remembered and I can't seem to recall why I stopped.