Jason

It's a horrible, terrible, awful thought at who you're going to give this pill to. Sure, you could just put it down the throat of the first person you pass on the street. But even if you did manage to get them to swallow it, there's almost no chance you could convince them to come back to Ami and Uri's place. You need someone that trusts you. And you're going to take that trust and betray them completely. I grab my things and start to head for the door, trying to come to terms with what I'm about to de. "Leave your phone," Uri interjects. "Don't want you to do anything stupid." He holds out his hand expectantly. I can't take any chances right now. I grab it out and send Jason a message asking him to meet me at my place. Luckily he responds quickly and agrees. With that, I hand my phone over to him before quickly leaving.

I head straight home, no stopping for anything. My mind is whirling with the actions I'm about to do. Maybe it's not too late, maybe I can go back and just keep doing what I need to to get my own pill. But there is a part of me that just wants this to be over, consequences be dammed. And right now that part is in control. Jason is already waiting out front when I arrive. As he sees me pulling up he lets out a beaming smile. Fuck. How can I do this? Ahhhh! Got to stay strong. You have to do this horrid thing. As I get out of my car he races over and wraps me in a big bear hug. I had forgotten how much taller he was than me now. "How's it hanging little sis." A giggle burst forth, followed by a feeling of immense sadness. "Yeah, I'm okay Jason." He seems to pick up on what I'm feeling and puts a hand on my shoulder as we walk inside. "Everything okay? Anything I can help with?" God dammit. Why does he have to be so caring? Why couldn't I have an arsehole for a stepbrother? Why did he have to be decent? "I'm just figuring some stuff out, that's all." There's a brief pause before he responds. "Okay..." Seems like he's not truly convinced but at least he's dropped it for now. Better change the subject before he starts up again. "How's everything with you? Your friends still giving you trouble?" A huge smile crosses his face and he lets out a nervous laugh. "It's been awesome. What we did really helped." Jason blushes at what he said. That's good to hear. I may not like his friends but at least what we did wasn't for nothing. "Well, family help each other out." The word tumbles out of my mouth without even thinking bringing forth another wave of sadness and dread. "So you're saying you'd do that again." I let out a mock gasp and slap his arm. "No! We're not doing that again."

But then a thought crosses my mind, the one that has been looming over me since I left Uri's. "Well..." Jason's ears perk up at hearing this. "Yeah?" Damn, he sounds excited. Might as well get it over with. "Well, I had such a good time with you, I had a thought." I reach into my pocket and grab the pill. "Before I realized how they worked I ordered two. And since I'm already a girl, I thought you might like to try it..." Jason cautiously reached out and grabbed the baggy. He looks like he's seriously considering it. "Does it hurt?" The question had me thinking forward to what I'm about to subject him to, and what I've already been through. "The transformation feels a little weird, but overall it's almost painless." It's not technically a lie but deep down I know it's far from the truth. He opens the bag and pours the pill out into his cupped hand. My eyes are fixed on the pill. I want to slap it away, to tell him what's going on, to ask for help. But I know that it won't help, that this is the only way.