I Don't Want To

I pulled away from Jack, still trying to catch my breath and clear my head. "I'm sorry, Jack, but I can't do this," I said firmly.

Jack's expression changed to one of disappointment, but then he smiled reassuringly at me. "It's okay, David. Take your time to think about it."

My rejection of Jack had left me feeling conflicted and confused. I knew deep down that I was not gay, but the physical attraction I felt for him was undeniable. I couldn't stop thinking about his touch and the way his body felt against mine. It consumed me so much that I found myself daydreaming about him at work, and even in my spare time.

Every day, I felt increasingly drawn to Jack. Despite my inner struggles, I found myself seeking him out more and more often. I didn't know if it was the power he held over me or his seductive nature, but I knew I was in trouble. Little by little, Jack began to shower me with gifts and attention - a pen with my name inscribed on it, a designer watch, even a keychain that I found absurdly cute. With each gift, my resistance waned just a bit more. I started to crave his presence even more and couldn't help but wonder what it would be like to give in to him completely.

As the gifts continued to arrive, I noticed a shift in their nature. They were becoming more feminine, clothing items and jewelry that I knew were in line with the image of a trophy wife. The thought of turning into something so stereotypically "feminine" should have been repugnant to me, but the way Jack made it sound so glamorous and exciting... I couldn't help but feel drawn to the idea. The temptation to give in to him was stronger than ever.

The gifts continued to pour in, but instead of feeling tempted, I was starting to feel overwhelmed and uncomfortable. I decided to confront Jack and tell him that I couldn't keep receiving these gifts.

When I told him this, Jack's expression turned to one of disappointment, but then he smiled reassuringly at me. "David, I'm not giving you these gifts because I expect anything in return. I give them because I genuinely care about you and want to see you happy." His words gave me pause, and I couldn't help but wonder if he was telling the truth. Despite my misgivings, I found myself drawn to him even more.