Fine.

It was a small nap I took but a nap nonetheless. I woke up by considerable movements on my side. Sophia’s side. She was slowly rubbing herself, but it seemed she took her time. I may have been spent for the day, or at least for the coming hours, but she was not. Not at all. She had undressed herself and by moving so much, undressing herself she had woken me. Not in all her glory, she had left her bra on, and her panties. Rubbing her fingers under the fabric. Slowly, like she was waiting...

She felt my gaze, looking at what she was doing.

“Finally... you are awake. I was wondering...” She whispered naughtily.

“... wondering if I could do you a favor?” I replied, grinning.

“I was as a matter of fact...” She huskily replied.

“Sure... but let me look with what I am working with, perhaps?”

“Sure...”

She unclasped her bra, revealing her breasts, being quite the handful. Her nipples were standing straight up. Perhaps it was almost a permanent position for them, being aroused all the time, around the clock.

It was as if she was embarrassed with them, somehow.

“I know have bigger breasts than all your other girlfriends have...”

I leaned forwards, my mouth was on top of one. I licked a nipple slowly.

“I daresay...”

I sucked it gently, eliciting a quick sharp panting escaping her lips.

“... I can...”

Letting it loose, licking the areola around it, taking it, teasingly, perhaps painfully, between my teeth.

“... adapt...”

Another, even louder panting she sharply inhaled.

“... just fine.”

Letting it loose again.

Sophia slowly exhaled the air she had held in after my surprise attack.

Calmed a bit, aroused a bit more, she whispered: “Just fine... indeed...”

“How did you know?” She asked as in wonder.

“After the blowjob you gave me? Rough as it was, you wanted me to act a bit rougher with you. Just a bit. So I will...”

I heard and felt Ella looking over my shoulder.

“Already finetuned to your desires, is he? But Sophia, sometimes I wonder...”

“Wonder what...?”

“How many times do you need to orgasm, before you are satisfied for a while?”

Sophia was silent for a moment.

“Actually, that is a very good question...” She replied.

“So you never...?” Ella asked in surprise.

“No.” Sophia said, a bit sad.

“So you are always in a state of arousal, light or heavy, never ceasing...?” Ella felt compassion.

My mouth fell open. I thought I had it rough, locked in a semi-permanent state at the time between arousal and empathy.

“Yes and no... Don’t look so sad, Alex. I can function perfectly fine. When I feel a bit frustrated, it gives me energy, to put in action, to get things done fast. Efficiently. That lowers my arousal level quite a bit. When I felt very frustrated, I started running to dissipate the energy. Or masturbated... When that didn’t work, I... well, yes, I could call it like this... I hunted a man, or several at the same time to get myself satisfied in some kind of overload, like you had, Alex. And then it went away for a time... Or not, depending on the experience.”

“You poor woman... I’m so sorry... I never knew.” Ella, shocked and feeling sorry for Sophia. Just as I was.

“Sophia, you sacrificed too much for choosing me to fall in love with and starting a relation with me. I will never be able to give you...”

“Alex. Stop. Even if I could resist myself falling in love with you, which I never could, I wouldn’t want that. Even if I could resist myself falling in love with you, several times in succession, I wouldn’t want that, either. I am starting to think... That you were exactly what I always needed in my past life. Someone with a low sex drive, low enough, to feel with me, trying his utmost best. That instead of one man after another, that were never interested in giving me what I needed. Not that I left them any clue, but still. Since falling in love you, I **** myself a hundred percent to stop looking for another man. I know I don’t need another man. I want only you.”

“But... your sacrifice... I...”

“No, Alex. It isn’t a sacrifice having won a lot more with you. You forgave me. No one else ever did that for me. When you did, at that moment, I knew I wouldn’t be able to live without you at my side. And since you kept caring for me, kept loving me as you do now, every time I am reminded of my pure luck and joy to have found you. Sex, in whatever fashion, will never feel the same like before, whenever I am with you, see you, feel you, I feel infused with pure joy and love. When I watched you burning yourself out with Kate, I have never climaxed the way I ever did, and I kept orgasming several times that hour, just by watching you, also like never before.”

“Oh...”

“You keep feeling surprised when a woman falls in love with you, like never before. I thought you would have accepted by now, you are indeed, a very special man. But on the other hand, I don’t want you to accept it, and I think you will never do, because that it is what is so beautiful to see. The surprise, the joy it brings you, I wouldn’t miss it for the world! I first thought Kylie, Kate and Kara were exceptionally in their ways, to be so confident in their ways, they knew they wouldn’t lose you when you met other women. They welcomed it even. It was true, but that is not the only thing. There is more to it. They and myself included, want to give that gift to others too, and also want to keep seeing it happen, when you feel yourself fall in love, when they see other women fall in love with you. So when you finally accepted Ella, it was so beautiful to see.”

I didn’t know what to say. I was too overwhelmed by her love. I wanted to give some of it back perhaps. So I kissed her. Hungrily. But not to get more love out of her, but to give her mine. She accepted my kiss. Hungrily, to give hers and to take my love. It felt I had kissed her forever, when she broke the kiss.

“Stop, Alex. I can’t get more. I am too overwhelmed.” She was crying and smiling at the same time.

“I...”

“No. Stop. Just watch me calm down.”

And I did. And I was grateful for it. And I was just fine with it.

I kept watching her, wiping off her tears. Everyone was watching her, in joyful amazement.

“Oh, god, Alex...”

To break the mood, to calm her down:

“Alex is just fine...”

It was a stupid joke. But it was what she needed. She smiled, her breath became stable again. She could control her emotions again. Everyone else too. I could too.