Chapter 28
by 
paner
What's next?
Eveline’s POV
Eveline’s POV
"Wow." I thought to myself as I looked at the ceiling as I laid on my bed. I've been in this position for quite a while now without daring to move for fear that it's all a dream. To make a long story short, I had sex with my own daughter. This taboo should be shocking, disgusting and terrifying. After all, every moral and ethical line and barrier has been crossed. And, the worst part of the case is that the one who crossed that barrier was me, her very own mother.
I have committed some of the most aberrant acts that can cross a human being's mind, and I have done it fully aware of what I was doing. Although to say that I am sorry for my actions and that I will find a way to atone for this sin I have committed, I would be lying. Everything was as I imagined and more. I enjoyed every second of it. And even now when I think of Jessica sleeping next to me naked, my pussy can't help but twitch with happiness and desire.
As I looked at the ceiling I began to reflect on how I got here. Relatively recently it was unthinkable that this would happen. It was strange how much I have changed in such a short time, but I have become accustomed to this strangeness recently. The transformation I have undergone is unprecedented. Overnight I had a change in both personality and habits that I never would have imagined. My thoughts were no longer so rigid and responsible, but instead were libertine and exciting. The way I acted, spoke, walked, or even thought changed radically. At times, I felt like a new Eveline. which is strange, isn't it? I'm still the same person, but everything that the old me represented seems so far away. Recently all my thoughts are as clear as day. The old me was hesitating and struggling between her responsibilities as an adult and as a mother. But ever since I noticed my change in personality, all decisions are a piece of cake. I simply prioritize what gives me the most pleasure. This change in my personality, I don't know when it appeared exactly but it must be at least a month ago. It's a kind of guiding feeling that I feel in the back of my head. At first it was strange, my mind would sometimes get foggy and I would do things that I use to considered outrageous. I remember Jessica's hidden t00Ter profile almost gave me a heart attack, and for a time, felt like I was thinking like my old self again. But it wasn’t long before these perverted thoughts and desires came creeping back. How silly I was. Obviously I should be masturbating to the pictures and video that Jessica uploaded! I mean, didn't she upload them with the purpose of making people jerk off to them? Besides, it's impossible for me not to want to masturbate with these giant marshmallow things attached to my chest. I mean, sometimes I think these babies take all the oxygen that goes to my head.
Oh, but I digress. That's another thing that has changed with this new persona. I used to think it was mean and humiliating to have a woman's body part nicknamed some derogatory term. I remember when my ex-husband Paul called my ass chubby cheeks. I almost killed him. But now look at me, I can't help but want to nickname my sweet tits.
I digress again. Well since this weird new personality showed up, everything has gotten better. I used to try to resist these thoughts and desires. Every time I gave in to theses perverted thoughts and impulses, I got more pleasure than I could ever imagine. Thanks whatever was going on in my head, I had learned such different ways of masturbating that I doubted they were even possible. It also simplified my choices for the day. I no longer worry about what to wear or what to eat. If I see something I like, I eat it or wear it without a care in the world. I also developed taste for the lesbian porn. It really made me question my sexuality at the start. For my whole life, I thought of myself as straight. I was really attracted to men. But when my changes started to occur, it was like something switched inside me. Men no longer got me going, it was women. Hot sexy women with big asses and boobies. It was like I had the mind of a man. After seeing Jessica’s profile, I developed a desire to watch **** porn, and try adult toys for the first time. This new desire and sexuality had become part of my daily life. It was complete dictating my actions in a subtle way or giving me funny and naughty ideas. So when I feel a idea pop in my head, or develop any desire, I just let myself get lost and act in the way my body and head is telling me. I can no longer resist it, no do I want to.
Sometimes I feel that the ideas and desires don’t come through, like I’m missing something that’s helping to guide me. When that happens, it’s uncomfortable. That I no longer have an inner voice or instinct telling what I want or what to do, which can be a bit annoying.
My new persona and sexuality drives me and makes me bold. It has made me love what I am! Even now I can feel all these naughty thoughts and ideas filling the back of my head.
My hand reached up and gently tugged on my nipple.
"Mmmmmmm" I stifled the moan as best I could to keep from waking Jessica.
The fact that I’m growing horny again for myself, my body aching for touch and release right beside Jessica is all the more evidence at this new me. The movement of my body has become automatic so it's not surprising. It’s like my mind and body knew what I wanted before I did. I move my hand on my own initiative to my swollen clitoris and start to move it.