Are we ready for this?

“OK, Gin, explain.”

“M, are you angry I bought it up? Cos' if you are, let's just drop it, I'm not about to endanger what we have, OK?”

“No Gin, I'm not, I wasn't when we talked about it before and I'm not now. You know we're solid Honey, don't you?”

Ginia nodded, I could see her eyes start to tear, we moved together and I kissed her beautiful face.

“Nah, Honey look, what's your thinking? You've talked to Liz, you must have a reason and a plan? Tell me.”

“Liz is lost, she said she can't get past what she did to you, mostly, but what she did too her family also. You know she's completely chopped her mother out of her life, She'll only meet Randolph at his office or when he's by himself.”

“Oh, and things aren't a bed of roses in the Parker household either.”

“Well she just can't get past what she had with you, especially, and don't shoot the messenger Mike, OK, I'm just telling you Liz's story, OK, she can't get past you're guys past, she said that what you guy's did and shared in those last months you were together were the most exciting times ...She ever experienced ....sexually.”

Ginia's face had started to morph into a grimace from when she started to relay her story of Liz and now she scrunched her face up and pared at me with one eye totally closed, as she braced for the explosion. It never really came, “Ah shit! Now she grows a conscience, why? There's no going back, ever. So Gin what does she really want? Did she say? Did she even know? We've been here before.”

“Okay let me tell you the rest. As she started to talk about what she lost I felt so sorry for her, well, I felt so guilty too, for what we both have now, I just about offered you to her on a plate, well you know like sharezy's.”

“NO, not happening, too close, even this other thing, I don't know I want any involvement in it. I don't know it's the healthiest for our relationship, as long as her reality understands, me and her are done I think I'll agree with it.”

“Not even watch, Mike.”

“I'd have to think about it, I can't say I'd understand the need, oh it would be very sexy, but how would you two feel about me watching or doing? Let me think about it Gin. OK. Anyway getting back to your plan..”

“Yeah, so she loved doing the porn thing with you, but she divorced herself from a lot of that, you know with couples and such, too painful she said. She admitted though that she has watched and still watches is the light BDSM stuff, you know like what I've done, what I told you about.”

I interrupted Ginia, “Gin I never told you, you know the first time we had sex after I found out about her cheating, well she asked me about the techniques I'd learnt and I'd said I'd watched ideas from porn, I'd never told her what porn, but that was the day you'd shown me your porn clip, everything we did that night mirrored what I'd seen you do to your **** sluts.”

“OH, I SO need to bring out my own line of D-I-Y porn DVD's!”

We both burst out laughing, I pulled her to me, hugged and kissed her as we giggled to each other, ... actually the DVD thing ....uh no, never mind, one thing at a time.

Gin went quiet after that, she had a thoughtful pensive look on her beautiful face, her eyes swivelled to see if I was looking at her and then she looked away, “What Gin? Tell me?”

“Well M, err... umm,I ..... well ... Liz is coming for tea.”