[Letter From The Author] Why I Haven't Written In A While (10/13/2024)

To my readers,

You have probably noticed that I have not updated my stories in a couple months now. Don't worry, I haven't lost my enjoyment for writing or reading erotica, but I've been having motivational struggles to continue. Many of you probably don't know much about my personal life (and that's probably a good thing. It is a tiresome story) unless you know me from the CHYOA Discord server. Anyways, I have never had really good mental health to begin with, and it is only worsened by my declining physical health.

Tomorrow, I will be getting some tests that will either conclude I have cancer, or don't have cancer. I don't want to trouble you guys with the details, but I want to let you know what that means for my stories. If you all didn't know, I like to believe I am a Christian, maybe not a devout one, but still. In the event that my mortality seems to be coming to close end because of my physical health, I feel the need to let go of writing smut, maybe to earn a few points before the end, get my moral affairs in order, and whatnot. Beyond that, I've had trouble reconciling this with my poor mental health. Part of me wants to know I won't be around much longer, then the other part says that I still have things to accomplish and do here on this Earth.

Some of you might say, "That's pretty insane Callous. You should get therapy." Oh, trust me, I've tried. I got a lot of unique situations and trauma that can't be merely solved by that. I've gotten up off my knees a total of four times hearing the refusal of my marriage proposals to women I've dated. I thought at least one of them would be a forever person. None of my friends I knew in person are alive anymore. I find no value in my employment because I have nothing to work towards (I have enough money to last until my 40s, I'm that rich, so employment isn't so much a necessity as much as it is just a pass-time or a means to find someone special, although ironically, all these medical bills might just require me to work a lot more at some point. Haha).

Anyways, I don't really know what more to add to this. This is more of a message so you all know what I've been going through, and why there hasn't been new chapters. If I end up not having cancer and/or the prognosis on my health is good, I'll get back to writing. that's a promise. I'm going to try not letting my poor mental health get in the way of doing what I like to do. I got two hands to type, and some really good ideas for what to write, so I really don't have any excuse not to. I can't not write for my readers just because I have some kind of depression, that'd be selfish of me in a way.

Well, that's all I got. A good portion of me hopes to write some more and wants some good news tomorrow that I can do that.

God Bless All Of You,
Rev. Callous