(Fan Created Branch) Silent rain

While Jillan sought consolation in Joel, Brielle sat down and cried again after talking with pastor George. How did things get this crazy? She knew she loved Jillian. But how much did she really love her? She thought about her own stupid comment about fucking men like every other girl. Did she really mean it? Would she rather fuck men? Be a "normal" girl the way pastor George and most people in the church wanted her to be? She began to question herself and her sanity. It was all on her, and she knew it. It was her hairbrained idea to deceive the church into thinking she and Jillian were going straight so she could bring some change to the church. She never considered there would be a price to pay.

She felt cold and empty as she sat there with her arms wrapped tightly around herself. Yes, Jillian was mad, and she knew she fucked up big time. She looked at her phone laying on the coffee table in front of her. She picked it up with the intent to call Jillian and tell her she was sorry, that she didn't mean what she had said. She just wanted her to come back and hold her and make everything all right. She sobbed even harder now as her fingers danced on the phone's screen to bring up Jillian's number on speed dial. But something made her hesitate, and she sat the phone back down on the table. She sat there staring at it as she cried. So alone. So cold. So miserable.

Brielle stood up from the sofa and walked away. She knew she had to give Jillian time to calm down. To call her now might only start the argument all over again. She turned on the stereo, and an old George Harrison song hit her right between the eyes with a vengeance:

"Learning How To Love You" by George Harrison

"While all is still in the night

And silence starts its flow

Become or disbelieve me

Left alone with my heart

I'm learning how to love you

While waiting on the light

How patience learned to grow

Endeavor could relieve me

Left alone with my heart

I know that I can love you

Love you like you may have never been

Move you more ways than you have seen

To a point in the time where we see so much more

Then the ground that we touch

With each step so unsure

As teardrops cloud the sight

Your eyes may never know

No truth could ever fear me

Left alone with my heart

Learning how to love you

Love you like you may have never seen

Move you more ways than you have been

To a point in the time where we see so much more

Then the ground that we touch

With each step so unsure

As teardrops cloud the sight

Your eyes may never know

No truth could ever fear me

I'm left alone with my heart

Learning how to love you"

It was enough to break her, and she fell to her knees as she cried a flood of silent tears. "I'm sorry!" she cried out loud. "I'm sorry for the whole mess I've created!" She looked up as if looking to the sky. "Forgive me. I can't help it. I love her more than life itself. Please forgive us both if this love is wrong, but I can't live without her." She suddenly felt a warm tingling touch inside her. She felt comforted as she calmed herself again and dried her tears. She knew she had to make things right with Jillian. She knew she had to learn to love her better. But the seeds of deception were now sown, and she would have to reap whatever they yielded.